I'm having a panic attack

I can't breath or stop my eyes from leaking. My blood preasure is so high my veins are popping out like last years mr. olympia and i see through black dotted shadows and my heart is throbbing so bad in my stomach and throat it feels like im going to throw it up..breath i keep telling myself
They dropped the charges of registration and tags on my son which would have been over 1000.00$ in fines but violated him. He went to court this morning to find out what they will do to him for a violation of probation at 8:30am but i have no way of finding out what happened.
the landlords here are going back on their word and said they wont provide anymore heat. i paid for 3 months of gas heat in advance but they never fixed the gas line to my heater. They finially gave me an outdoor proane heater but said they won't fill the tank again and want me to have the electric turned on so i have to pay for electric heat that isn't near enough to warm this p[lace up in the first place.that's what i was using on an extention chord and it was so cold in here i couldn't function. Nor have they fixed the water plumbing 9i cyphin water from the sink to take a bath] or brought a stove or refregerator and now that jon's gone they are threatening to cut off my heat and electricity.
Not to mention my son is my care giver. I never leave the house.........and my phobia of it seems to have escilated since jon got taken away.
that's what caused this attack. Someone cut of my power and i weas sitting here in the dark. It's always dark here in the canyon, especially with all this rain. My first thought was that they were harassing me because i refuse to turn on the electric in my name until they fix the heat.
I went to the door but i couldn't go out it...... Suddenly i felt like i was getting too much air and i couldn't breath like all my adrinalin got jammed wide open and the room started swimming Then the lights came back on and im sitting here trying to rashionalize my emotional and phisical reaction to this situation
It is totally illogical and irrashional that i feel so ...scared.
i haven't checked any of my emails...or even been able to focus on anything lately......whew............breath.........my breathing is slowing down a bit now......i know i will get through this. I don't know whats wrong with me.........I DO DARE TO DREAM! I DO BELIEVE IN THE IMPOSSIBLE.
I'm looking at this situation 2 demensionally. I need to get outside of my box and gain a realistic perspective! This is the second time i specifically prayed the angel Michael protect my son and he went to jail. For every demension there is a greater perspective of the 'whole picture' and the angels have never let me down. Ever. I'm not so selfish to think only of myself needing my sons help right now. I trust Love and my son being protected is way more important then who will go to the store or talk to my #$#$%%^&%$#!! landlords............forgive me.
I realize i'm in the eye of the storm and my perspective is emotionally altered......
breath..just breath......now if i could tell my face to quit leaking lol!
Love, please wrap your arms around my son. Comfort his heart and ease his mind. My precious Uriel please whisper positive thoughts in his ear....please let him feel the power of love and know he is not alone. Tell him not to worry about me, i seem to do plenty of that on my own........hug him for me and tell him how much i love him. That i am still as proud as ever of him..................
thank you guys for letting me snivel on your shoulder. Isolation tends to make my thought run irrashionally rabbid some times. I hope they dont cut off my electricity because this site, it seems, is my single thread of sainity these days..........may love bless you all and your energy ever flow.....i promise to check my messages soon..when words quit swimming to my eyes lol! i love you guys.