I give up.

Again, an adaptation of myspace blog... not a good week seems to me hehehe.

Current mood: pissed off
Category: Life

What I am is chronically unemployable...

I was happy because I had a comission yesterday for a client... fast cash in little time... or so I thought...

This client says he doesn't like at all what I presented... says he wants different colors, that I repeated words too much, that I didn't change much of what they gave me...

Total lie!!!

I am so upset... and I am wrong, I know... I know I shouldn't feel a bad review as an agression, but it bothers me that I made a great job and people don't appreciate it. I mean, you can't manufacture a communication miracle in less than 24 hours...

And this is the second "No" I get in less than a week...

So I have to go monday morning with these people, and talk them through why I did the presentation like that... and that it is worth what I asked for... and that you can't make a presentation to your entire satisfaction in so little time... ugh.

So... I am tired, I feel crushed, my self-esteem is quite transparent at this moment.... aarrrggghhhhh!!!

But I gotta keep trying... I know it's a matter of time, I just need to get rollin' these wobbly bits of mine...

Wish me da luck... for I am in dire need of that...

Love,

Da Fae.

Currently listening :
So You’ve Ruined Your Life
By Get Set Go
Release date: 26 August, 2003

P.s.- I am so confused. I understand as a starseed that there is more to life than mortal concerns... I don't know if this is some kind of depuration process I am going through, or if this is supposed to mean something. I feel very lost at this time, I don't know if I could find a job, or work as what I studied was Communication and I have a masters degree in business administration (can you understand my frustration at this point?). What is pressuring me is the lack of money, and the need for a job... and it frustrates me because I consider myself very talented and creative, and I find it hard to believe that with my resumée I can't find a job that pays well and uses my abilities to benefit from them.
Oh Gosh, I don't know...

What I know is that I am thankful for all the joy, love, light and cheerings I am getting from you guys... no judging... only love... thank you, you might not believe me but... you are making a difference in my life, even if you are not a part of my physical reality, you are very much a reality in my spiritual being.

Love,
Aida.