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Disclaimer: I have a double (actually triple) blogging life. One is a secret way pof communicating with a friend... another one is my blog at my space (very very very mundane). And this one. They all complement my feelings... and this blog is unknown to people that come to myspace.... so I get to talk about them here hehehe mwahahaha (evil laughter yeah hahaha). This is an adaptation from my myspace blog. Writing is therapeutic for me. Hope you can understand me, and forgive me for allowing my more human side rant and whine from time to time. This post is particularly sarcastic and a bit dark. Showing my duality and mortal self to you, I guess hehehe. Love you all! -Aida

Current mood: implacable
Category: Life

They say that the paths of God are mysterious... they are right about this one...

I got a reply from the person that interviewed me for the job in another state. They declined, saying that I don't have the creative profile they require for the company.

My heart sank... and it is stupid, I know... I mean, I didn't want to leave... yet I did. I had assimilated the idea of moving, I thought it might be a good way to make a fresh start and feel better, get rid of debt... I was flowing, I had said yes... but they said no.

At least I am glad I know already... I was too stressed!

I felt though like Abraham, about to sacrifice his only son, and then the angel comes and says... hey, guess what? God says you passed the test!!

Hahahaha! What test? What the hay does this mean?

I have no idea. All I know is I have impending debts and I need a job, and I need it now!!

Even though my day sucked, I am happy because I have a small commission to take care of... for tomorrow, and it will pay well... oh yeah, and it is communication related... so maybe God is having fun with me... giving me this little thing to do, so I won't feel like Iwas underrated and I am still very good at what I do...

Perhaps...

So I am back at square one...

And to make things superbly better... something kind of psychicly weird happened to me today... even though I am not speaking to my ex right now... I have him on my msn... when we were together, he used to write "je suis avec toi" on his tag (meaning I am with you, in french). I thought about that this morning... I don't know why... he hadn't put that tag in a couple of months (since we broke up). It was magically back again today... of all days. I don't know what it means... I don't know if it means he has been reading my blog at my space... and he wants to show support... or if he has a new gf and is showing her his love like he did to me... or what... I don't know... and I don't want to talk to him... if I do, he will ask again why I broke up with him (he doesn't believe in marriage and doesn't want to have children until 2012 has passed, among other things) which would bring a huge mess all over again debating why if there is love, we can't be together, which is very very tiring... uuuggghhhhhh!!! So I don't know what to think of that...

I don't wanna work, I don't wanna pay bills, I don't wanna be poor, I don't wanna deal with dating, I don't wanna stand in line, I don't wanna pay any taxes... -I borrowed this line from a song by one of my greatest evil twins, Mike TV, from Get Set Go-.

Yeah, it was one of those days...

Alas, poor Yorick... we've no choice but to move our round wobbly bits and keep looking...

Pursue happiness... pursue health...pursue peace... pursue money and abundance... pursue love...

And in the meantime... die a little bit.

With charming memories from the depths of doom,

Aida.

Thank you, for allowing me to be!