Why I'm here

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Ok all I'm sayin is I'm here to have fun and don't mean superficial fun but you know fun! You are beautiful people and I take joy in your beautiful radiances. Yeah yeah there's work to do but I was always the last kid out of the pool anyway. Secretly I saw you from a distance and you were watching out for me but you didn't know that deep in my heart I was sending you love, that I spied you watching out for me. That image stays with me. I stayed quiet and it made me happy. Life is weird and you never know who is watching out for you. I am watching the one who is watching me. Those many.

I've felt too quiet but there is nothing to know about me. When the speech happens it comes out of nowhere, by some power. I'm silly and I'm strange. Because there's nothing more I want than to see you laughing and happy. I am as I am, with nothing to teach and no one to teach it to. These are my words so what let them come and let them go.

People say I chose but I didn't choose to come here. There was the illusion of a choice that I made but really I was carried along by the power that makes speech happen. I indwelled in that power and I still do. It doesn't have a name it doesn't need a name it won't stand for a name.

But we will keep watching out for each other in love secretly thinking that the other is unaware of it, and how joyful! My guardian standing way back from the shore while I'm caught between the waves going in and the waves going out, one in a million, I get turned around!

The day is long but not forever. I relinquish it in peace, like the tides.