Heath Ledger didn't know.

Or maybe he did, and he was just damned tired of waiting. I've been there. I just can't help but think that if he knew, he would have held on a little longer.

Heath Ledger, star of the planet-transforming movie, "Brokeback Mountain," is dead today of an overdose. It looks like suicide.

It appears he, too, was feeling the lull. Just like millions and even billions of others. Even beautiful, young, successful stars are not immune.

If he had known that this desperate darkness, this well of sadness and EMPTINESS is only the last preparations for the inflow, would he have been able to hang on for a few more weeks?

I've been where he was. I know some of you have been, too. And I can't help but think that if he knew, if he only knew, he could have waited out the darkness. But when you don't know, when you don't realize the sun WILL shine again, what you feel NOW feels like what you will feel forever, and it becomes not worth it to hang on.

The work he did here was absolutely transformative, and because of this, I know he was a Lightworker from way back. And so he was feeling this more acutely than some.

And now I know why it is that I take on the feelings of so many who are unable to cope with them themselves. This is why. I understand, now. And even though in the depths of the emotional and physical pain and suffering, I've cussed and sworn I was not going to feel anything but my own stuff, and I've rescinded any vow I ever made to carry the energetic burdens of others, I know that job isn't mine to choose or discard. At least, not that of my ego-self. My Higher Self knows all, and it makes the choice, and this is the work I do.

And I'm glad I do. And I will willingly continue to do it, to save as many as I can from the dark hopelessness.

I only wish I could have told him, somehow.

That's the challenge I face, made all the more acute by this aching loss. How do I tell others, besides the few that find my newsletter, my blogs, or my website? The many out there who are on the edge, or falling over that edge right now as we speak? They feel the same dark, bleak emptiness, but they don't know WHY...and more importantly...MOST importantly...they don't know WHEN it will STOP, or that it WILL stop at all.

I don't know. Maybe Heath was never meant to live past 28. Maybe he contracted for a short, brilliant lifetime and his work here was done. He'd certainly accomplished enough for a life purpose! "Brokeback Mountain" changed the WORLD and opened hearts in ways no one could have imagined.

So yes, maybe he was done here. Maybe it was his time to leave. Maybe. But I don't think so. I can't help but feel he succumbed to the darkness we've all been feeling, not knowing it was the harbinger of the Light he worked for...that all he'd sought was around the corner.

Hang in there. And tell others, even those who don't speak the spiritual lingo. Find a way to tell them that it's planet-wide, temporary, and just an adjustment that leads to so much more.

And I'll do the same.

Love in the Highest,

Satina
http://www.dharmawork.com