Another entry of "Songs I heard"

I was in the store today and I was looking for stuff to eat in a healthy way. Healthy foods and means of cooking them. When I heard a song by someone talking about how hard it is to fly.

And I began to think, "Well it's only hard to fly if you allow yourself to believe it is hard. Believe in yourself. Trust in your Higher Self and you will fly."

Mind you these have been things that I haven't said to myself for most of my life. I have usually looked at the negative side of things. I have been getting much better, and this time I consciously was saying, "No. You can actually fly. Just believe in yourself, and the Higher Energies, and you will."

Then, suddenly it seemed, that song stopped and a different song came on. When I say suddenly, I mean it was as though I was hearing the song and then in the middle of it (after my positive thoughts about flying) the song below started up. 'I Haven't Got Time For the Pain' sung by Carly Simon.

I haven't heard that song in many years. But I did recall, as I was listening to it that I used to feel that it was a song about a woman who had broken up with her boyfriend before and had found a new one. But that she still was kind of sad.

Then I had this "urge" to stop and listen to it.

When I did, I heard not a woman who was sad about an ex-lover. But a woman who was happy with this new life that she had found. This new Love that she had found. Especially when she sings, "'Til you showed me how, how to fill my heart with love. How to open up and drink in all that white LIGHT Pouring down from the heaven."

And it suddenly hit me 'DING' that she is singing of the Higher Light, the Higher Love, the Love of our Creator. The Love of the Christ Light.

Then I really began to feel happiness in my chest.

As I was walking home, I was still singing the song. Especially the lyrics above. And I began to feel a little more love. Then I was beginning to feel a little fear within myself. And I thought, "This is my Inner Child. I wonder what she's afraid of?" *

I asked her and she wondered if she/we were becoming Christian. She feared that, because our experience with people who speak of Christ have been very hurtful and judgmental to us-and others around the world, too. I know. ;)- and she was a little afraid that we might become like them. Or like a "Born-again Fundamentalist".

I said to her that it was alright for her to feel the fear. But that we are not becoming a "born-again". We are following the Christ Light. We are following the teachings of Jesus of The Christ, not 'Jesus Christ'.

I differentiate them because Jesus of The Christ was teaching Love, tolerance, acceptance, and that we are all GOD.

Whereas 'Jesus Christ' taught, according to the Christian Church, Love and tolerance and acceptance as long as those other people agree with what the Church says. As long as other people believed the teachings of the Christian Church, then Jesus and God Love you. But anyone who doesn't pronounce the Lord's name the same way. Well, they are evil and don't count among the teachings of 'Jesus Christ'.

Oh, and they teach that we are not GOD. We are his servants. We are his minions. We are his children, but He punishes those who do not obey. And if we are to think and believe that we are his equal and have the power to grow and create as he does, well, we are heretics and must be punished-in the most horrifying way a human can think of.

That is the opposite of what Jesus of The Christ taught. We are GOD. We are equal to Him/Her. We are GODs children, in a way, yes, but that He/She does not punish us if we don't agree with something that S/He has shown us. He loves us no matter what.

Jesus of The Christ taught us that we are Creators as well as a part of the Creator. We are all aspects of GOD. That we are all loved. Period.

I calmly and lovingly explained that to my Inner Child. She began to feel better. She is still a little afraid, but that is okay. I still love her.

Now what you've been waiting for...

I HAVEN'T GOT TIME FOR THE PAIN --by Carly Simon

All those crazy nights when I cried myself to sleep
Now melodrama never makes me weep anymore
'Cause I haven't got time for the pain
I haven't got room for the pain
I haven't the need for the pain
Not since I've known you

You showed me how, how to leave myself behind
How to turn down the noise in my mind
Now I haven't got time for the pain
I haven't got room for the pain
I haven't the need for the pain
Not since I've known you

I haven't got time for the pain (no pain)
I haven't got room for the pain (no pain)
I haven't the need for the pain

Suffering was the only thing made me feel I was alive
Thought that's just how much it cost to survive in this world
'Til you showed me how, how to fill my heart with Love
How to open up and drink in all that white LIGHT
Pouring down from the heaven
I haven't got time for the pain
I haven't got room for the pain
I haven't the need for the pain
Not since I've known you

CHORUS
(Fade)

This song fills me with Love and Light. And Katrina feels better. A little scared, but that is okay. The more love we feel and the less we allow the fear to control us, the more we will grow. The happier we will be.

I am not telling her the fear she has is wrong or bad. It has a viable place within our heart. We just don't want it to control us. Don't supress it, allow it to be within us, and allow it to be expressed. Just don't allow it to control us.

She is a beautiful girl and I love her very much. I'm proud of her. Period. I'm PROUD of her. :D.

Love and Light to you all.

Namaste

Daranah

*As I was proofreading this I realized that, as I was feeling more Light and Love enter into my heart, I began to feel fear. Something I realized, as I read it, was that when one feels fear for something that has just given them feelings of love, joy, and happiness, that is their darker side afraid of the change. It is a marker-of a sort- that is essentially saying that I am heading in the right direction. A change towards the positive. To a new life of love. Away from the familiar path of fear and sadness.

The fear that I felt, now that I think about it, is actually showing me, guiding me, telling me, that the path of Love I am on is the right way for me. The more I am fearing that the more I should continue. And I am continuing it. I am feeling better and happier. I am growing.

I may not be explaining this as well as I would like, but it is making sense to me. My Fear is telling me, in a sense, "Continue down the path of Light. I'm scared of the change and I am letting you know this. It makes me uncomfortable. You are pushing my familiarity boundaries, but it is one of the ways you'll grow."

I am not "giving in" to my fear and stopping my growth. I am allowing my fear to exist, and I am continuing down a path that is making me feel more Love and happiness. For myself and all around me.

Thank you "Dark Side" of me. You are not evil. You are not bad. You are a part of me and you are helping me to grow. And I thank you.

Daranah