Request for Healing

Brothers and Sisters...

I've been finding that lately I would take one step forward in my healing process (as I've described in previous blogs), and then two steps back.

I would reach out for help, for healing and for understanding. I've been left ditched and/or hurt everytime I've tried. Healing someone takes patience. And it's easy for someone to say "sure, I'll help".. But when it comes time to actually help, the emotional price, the cost of patience, the tax of understanding is too high. At the first sign of rough waters, I am left behind. Or worse yet, I am screamed at. This makes my path of healing even longer than it was before.

I don't know what else to do. I can heal on my own, but that takes a very long time indeed. I need help. So I ask of you, my brothers and sisters in light, to help me. I really need you. Tears stream down my face as I type this, because I am in pain. Not a day goes by that I don't hurt, cry, shake.... I've been getting anxiety attacks and migranes because I feel that I'm slipping down.

Help.

Please.