Humanity is catching up, what do we do?
Hi all, John here. ^^
Y'know, I was wondering something and I decided to talk about it here, since I'm quite curious as to what your thoughts on this subject would be.
I wanted to talk about fear, but not just any fear, more like...fear of losing your individuality (or something)...let me elaborate...
Usually I feel that I'm not as "advanced" as I used to be...like, more and more I feel that the rest of the world is "catching up" so to speak...and believe me, I'm glad about that, I mean, that's what it was all about right? Helping other humans reach the higher levels etc etc? I'm really seeing it everywhere...people are growing exponentially in the spiritual, mental and emotional sense. It's quite amazing to witness. Take for example the area of city-building and architecture (an area I'm very well-versed in) more and more architects, developers and city-builders are seeing what they've done wrong in the past and more 'n more they start applying things that will make cities and neighborhoods even better than before. It's quite amazing to witness and it's not just that area, it's in practically every field. :) But then...then I take a look at myself and wonder why I'm not staying ahead of the pack...it's like they're all catching up, but I'm staying where I am...and I wonder (and fear) if they'll reach the high levels of consciousness we've reached...since it's pretty obvious that will indeed happen I'm thinking "what will happen to me? what will make me different from them once they're "here"?"
Don't get me wrong, I do not wish for the rest of humanity to forever grovel in the dirt...but...
Ok, take for example my higher understanding of the workings of the built environment...I already see other people having reached that level of understanding and soon they all will...what becomes of me then? This change is quite startling, because I remember as a little kid having been extremely aware and thinking "gosh, how long will it be for them to finally understand?" Not very long apparently...;p But now that they're starting to...of what use am I then? Again, it's not just the whole archi-stuff. I just feel that what I have isn't so "out there" anymore...it's become common, almost average even. :/
But again, of what use am I (or you) if the people can already handle things quite well by themselves?
Sometimes I get this strange feeling of being "outside" of everything...like an observer...simply observing how much the people have grown and how much has changed. But then I'm thrust into another state of mind where I *really* want to be part of the change and *do* stuff and contribute whatever...but then I think; "contribute with what? People already know...and if they don't know now..they will know soon enough..." I'm busy expanding myself in the art fields and architecture fields...but even if/when I do become a full fledged artist/urban designer, I will simply be one in many. There are already so many people doing it "right"...
I'm kind of stuck between wanting to be on top of everybody and simply letting go and let them do whatever they please.
::sigh:: I don't have many fears...and this isn't really a fear...it's more of a "I have no idea what to do with this" thing. Perhaps I'm (we're) supposed to just wander around overseeing everything, proudly patting their heads when they do things correctly? Pff...neither option seems to be fun. >_< Either be part of the rat race or not. :(
What do you guys think of this subject? Is there anybody that feels the same way? Lemme know. ^__^
~John
(and my apologies if I come off as arrogant concerning my abilities/awareness...I really don't mean it that way...it's just that people did not have what I had when I was younger, but now it's becoming more prevalent...that's what this whole thing is about)



