without forgiveness

we are but savage animals. as i looked into that young face today, i realized how vicious fear was. how distructive. how tormenting. how self distructive. the same fear that made me feel inhibited to show her love..is the same fear.that prevents her from loving herself........
I really don't think any of you can really imagine whay i am really going through.............when i saw my grandchildren in foster care.God bless it! Screw the dins of the father...........
i lived my wgole life in that nightmere. It has become very apparent to me, that this system, does not have the welfare of the family as their priority. They already have my newborn grand daughter last march 8th seperated from the whole family in sac in my son's x's relative's house. I have seen her 1 time since she was born. Now they talk of spliting up buba and aimee............
i say now before you all........................i will it not so by the power of you all and my faith.

this family will not be further spread.....
a few years ago, my son was my only living relative. Then he had a baby and i found my real brother on the net....
i am still in contact with my foster mom who raised me..but the system would not allow her to know anything about my blood kin
amanda is here for nite 2
lift me up
i need syrength