Having terrible anxiety attacks again

All my life and most noticebly the past three years I experience severe anxiety attacks. Most recently in the last three days, in which I could not bring myself to go to work. I know I am not in the career that is right for me( collections) but I can not just quit my job as I am a single parent. In addition, although I know something in the metaphysical arena is my calling I just don't even where to focus my energies or know how to begin. I will need to return to work tommorrow or else lose my job and I cannot afford to lose this fulltime pay as I am the only one that supports my 4yr.old. I am at the end of my wits right now, I cannot continue on like this. I have tried meds and they don't help, nor do I want to mess up my system with that poison. Truth be told, my heart is already starting to race and it is not even 5AM. Anyone that can send some healing, clarity or insight into this would be greatly apreciated.

Thank you in advance,
Jodie