New to blogging but will give it a shot:)

Allrighty then... I just have to say that lately I have been feeling a sense of urgency to do and be all these things... and I am so excited about it but also very overwhelmed.. I feel like there are a million different roads I can take as far as life path/career and I have no idea which one to take. I want to start taking more development classes but again, don't know where to begin.. I suppose I am not just beginning... I have taken a spiritual mastery course.. I have also taken a mediumship class (but was the only one in class who went blank when it came time to do a reading).I read a ton of books... I do hope to be a medium in the future.. Three years ago I had a stillborn baby girl named Tori and after that happened I went through a lot of phases.... denial, anger, why me, why did god do this, etc, etc.. I have learned a lot since then that is for sure.. I went to have a crossing over reading with an awesome medium (Martina Schmidt) and it was the most healing experience I have ever had. Since that reading and since many other events, I feel so much more at peace with everything.. I know that Tori is really powerful and is able do to way more work where she is than if she were here in physicality. I want to be a medium to help people the way Martina helped me... she also told me in that reading that I am a medium and that is the main reason I was there to see her.. So, since then I have been working at it and feel blocked for some reason.. I just need to figure out where to begin and how to trust myself. Maybe I just need to stop pushing it too and let it happen when the time is right.. so anyway, I am glad I got that out:) I have to say I am blessed with an incredible family who have helped me to heal through their own positive changes because of Tori. Had they crumbled and stopped their own growth... I would have crumbled too. The ripple effect has been huge and it is because they are all so open and loving and I am so proud of everyone. I have to thank my baby girl for blessing us with her gift of love, light, and hope. She is the opener of many doors.
Peace:)