Putting on my Game Face

So, what’s up with putting on a game face. It’s still being me as that game face is mine. Is it a façade? It probably can be, having to do with what’s going on internally at the time. I always put on my game face when I’m playing a gig and it’s real for me, even on a bad day, because I get so deep into the character of who I am as a musician, that everyone feels it, including me.

There’s also, the fake it till you make it strategy, which sometimes really works for me. I put on my game face, get into character and if I can keep it up long enough, sometimes I really do have fun in situations I didn’t think I would and things really do work out.

And that’s the thing: if things work out, I feel good about myself and when I feel good about myself more things work out. Now there’s a spiral I can get into.

When Kat and I first got together, she didn’t like my game face, considering it fake. As years passed, she began to realize that it was more than a face; that I really did shift, mostly. Now, she wants me to put it on whenever I’m feeling down.

Part of me is resistant to that, but, it’s that part that sees it as fake. Actually, I like myself better when I’ve got my game face on. I’m so up, exuberant, fun to be around. It feels good. Of course Kat wants to be around that. Me, too.

I don’t know what the answer is to this, I just like looking at it and asking the question.