"ADD" and Indigos, the four agreements, the holidays, relationships. this blog has it all.

I have probably had "ADD" (Attention Deficit "Disorder") all my life.

I don't like the pathological tone of the word "disorder". It's a different brain style.
I wager that most people that "have" it are also Indigos or even more advanced than that.

I was at a gathering last night for an ADD group that I belong to. It was the annual
holiday party, which I have not been to for many years. I had actually stopped going
to the group. But I had been going through a rough patch over the summer and a depression
this fall so I wanted to check it out.

The group members had almost entirely turned over. Except for one guy who had done a talk
about the book "The Four Agreements" several years ago. It helped me tremendously.

The four agreements that you make with yourself and others are to:

1) be impeccable with your word (don't lie to your self or others, try to use words correctly (harder than it sounds!!!) What about the words "I love you!")

2) Don't make assumptions

3) Don't take things personally

4) always Try your best

These have been VERY useful in trying to achieve more peace.

Anyway, he and his partner also hosted the holiday party.

His partner is a lightworker. And an amazing spirit. They both are.

It was like being in the company of my tribe. All the people that were there.
The party was to run from 6-11pm but most of us couldn't tear ourselves away
from each other until 1:30am!! It was like a giant love fest. It was so affirming
and good to be with these people.

We all have troubles in our lives, difficulties struggles, because of our differences from
the way society normally works. Sometimes we just don't GET things.

I have had that difficulty in relationships. There are these games and rules people have and play
and I just don't understand them. I had a boyfriend try and explain them to me, and I thought
"that's too complicated." Why can't people just say what they mean. And if one doesn't understand
what the other means, can't they ask to clarify it?

It sounds like a lot of work, but ISN'T a good realtionship worth it??? Instead of making ASSUMPTIONS
about what the other person means by what they say or do, ask and clarify. One person might make assumptions
about the other that are totally incorrect!

It's difficult facing yet another set of winter holidays without being in a relationship.
I know there is divine timing, but I can't help but wonder if I keep missing something.

I am not lonely really, I have lots of friends and I am being very mindful about which relationships
and groups of people that I want to cultivate and go deeper with. Including which spiritual groups
to attend, and what yoga class might be best!

I am closer than I have ever been to my family, but that is mainly due to the fact of "grandchildren".
Spending time with my neice and nephews is such an incredible joy, especially since I believe they
are some of the "new kids" we keep hearing about.

I don't have any disposable income so the idea of gift giving is a little depressing. What was really wonderful and what I had originally meant this post to be about was that at teh party, the hosts were getting ready to move out of a house one of them had been in for 27 years! And they were giving away all kinds of stuff. It was really wierd, but I was able to pick out a number of things that would make PERFECT gifts for my family members, including the kids. And I had been admiring someone recently wearing a hand made Central American wool poncho and wanted one, and they were giving one away! Brand new! And an ice cream machine for the kids, and a necklace that made me so happy it was better than the one that had been stolen from me at a dance camp. But even funnier, the FIRST thing I discovered was a barometer. I had been looking at them in catalogs and said, one day it will be nice if I can have one, and there it was. I got a goddess kit for my sister and on with a dozen other little things. The whole experience was this benevolent affirmation that good things really do happen. It was the real spirit of Christmas and I felt it so deeply.

I hope that you and yours experience the True Spirit of Christmas and Light this holiday season in unexpected ways.

Blessings, S