On the Mend

I'm coming back from a depth of an extremely low vibration.. Brothers and sisters, I wish to share this experience with you.

The vibration of these feelings, fear, dispair, loneliness, insignificance, has added to my knowledge and I am on the rebound. That is not to say that I have all-of-a-sudden recovered from such an experience. But rather, I do realize that emotionally and spiritually I'm still a bit fragile from the experience as I heal. And the road to recovery is uncertain, but I'm hopeful that I can return to the person that I wish to be.

They were wounds, you see, and feelings of such a low vibration can seem like they would tear me apart. There are a few around me who love me and would not give up. I'm grateful for their help in my escape from the experience, as well as their continued support while I heal. The support that I've found here has also been of great value to me. There are still uncertainties in my life, and some of them I am quite afraid to face because of the cost of failure. It will take a bit more strength than what I have now.

It hurt. It really did. And it still does, but it is simply the pang of recovery rather than an agonizing stab of destruction.

This year, what a year.. I have discovered more about myself, my purpose and my contribution than I ever thought possible. There is such clarity in that now, and I'm glad that I made it this far. It did not come without cost, though. I always remember the price I've paid to grow so much. I still have more to do, and it causes me great hesitation. I know what I require to be strong and to make it through better than ever, I just hope that I can attain what I need soon enough.

My light is no longer struggling. Rather, now it is still a bit dim, but repairing and rebuilding.

With Love and Light.