[Insight] My lesson in divine timing, manifestation, trust, and love.

Namaste, dear brothers and sisters. Aside from the channeling work I've been doing in the last few weeks, I have also been personally facing a lesson. I am guided to share this with you as this experience may bless someone else who is undergoing a similar situation. I would also appreciate your prayers and any assistance you may be able to give, especially finding the resources to help me.

A short while ago, I asked you all to bless my efforts to get into a school of traditional medicine on a scholarship. I received a response from the school on October 23 stating that I had been accepted into the program I had applied to. I thank you all again for blessing me as I asked, and also celebrating my acceptance into the school with me.

However, to make a long story short, it turns out there has been a misunderstanding in the various exchanges between myself and the school; I have not yet been given a scholarship, and so even as the start date for the next term approaches rapidly, I find myself with no scholarship, wanting so badly to register for the winter term, yet still waiting some more documents required in order to complete my application for a scholarship (at best, I can only hope for a partial one because I am not a Canadian citizen). Yesterday felt particularly challenging as it seemed like there is no way I can go to school at this point.

What deepened my sorrow at this is that my twin flame and soulmate is waiting for me to join him in that city (my search for my calling to the healing arts was triggered by his arrival into my life this year); I believe it was no coincidence that I found both my new school and my twin flame and soulmate in the same city at nearly the same time.

So in the physical aspect of things, I don't have the resources to pay for my tuition fees or support myself during my stay in Canada should I get a partial scholarship to my diploma program in Acunpuncture and Oriental Medicine. Although I will be able to keep my current job teaching English over the phone to corporate clients from within Canada (all I need is a phone line and Internet access to do my job), I will not make enough to pay for tuition, buy books and other materials, rent a place to stay in and feed myself. What feels particularly oppressing is that the 3D requirements of governments demand I have at least an X amount of dollars annually to be given a visa and study permit and enter the country. So even if I did get a partial scholarship, my getting the visa and study permit would remain to be seen.

The last few days have been full of tears for me as I felt very sad at this seeming low turn of events. However, I believe this is all part of the process of releasing and letting go of what no longer serves our Higher Existences. Similarly, since I have been reading the wonderful words of Master Joshua David Stone about the Laws of Manifestation and the 14 Levels of Wisdom, Love, and Power, I know this is only a lesson in divine timing, manifestation, love, and trust, as well as honouring myself as the Christ that I AM. This is no time for regrets, doubts, fears and anxieties, even as two hearts beating as one are aflutter about being reunited once again in the physical and a new life remembering all my knowledge in the healing arts waits in the wings.

There is no rush, only this now to be grateful in, to be focused on my divinity, and grounding it in this physical existence.

My I Ching reading reveals this message from the Goddess today:

Increase and decrease are part of the natural cycle of life. As another good book puts it, "To every thing there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven." Like a reservoir that is being used to irrigate the fields, learning to accept a decrease in position or material possessions is part of preparing for increase in the future.
Be mindful of the lesson of young lovers: even with a minimum of possessions, feelings of the heart can bring an unsurpassed richness to life. The smallest of actions, if sincere, have value. So remain confident, for a time of decrease may actually bode good fortune. Especially if you remain open to that possibility.

Let go of frustration, resistance and regret over whatever may be decreasing at this time. Accept the cycle.

I am just a person, too, even with all the wonderful blessings in my life like Kundalini Reiki and the visions and channelings I get to do. I am humbled and honoured to be facing this situation at this time.

I say to despair and anxiety, be gone, for I choose Love and Faith.

I claim and own my power consciously once again, recognising that this is only a balancing of my excessive use of will and control in this manifestation. I bless this situation and have only Love for everyone involved, especially for myself.

If the Great Spirit leads you to offer help in any way, I welcome it with open arms, dear brothers and sisters. If you have any information about individuals or groups that would be able to assist me in studying for a three-year diploma program in Acupuncture and Oriental Medicine, I would appreciate hearing about it. If you also have any information about job leads in Canada that would bring me a step closer to my twin flame, I would also appreciate it very much.

Right now, I humbly and joyfully let go of the control of this situation and trust that I will be able to go to school and be reunited with my twin flame and soulmate very shortly. The how is in Divine Hands now.

But more importantly, I know this is all a beatiful part of my journey, so I know all is well. I believe such experiences are helping me to learn so many things, and especially keep me grounded even as I am given many responsibilities and gifts.

Onwards, upwards I go in faith, joy, hope, and gratitude.

Namaste.