I'm Coming Out!

This is huge for me. Today I am releasing a giant fear.
I'm coming out from laying low on who I am, on my favorite website and place of safety and love.

I am from Wisconsin. It gets dark and cold here in the winter.
That used to bother me very much. I got seasonal affective disorder very badly most winters. I have wanted for the past 4 years to move to Hawaii.
I was told through 2 dream visitations to my husband from his father that I was not supposed to move. I fought it for the longest time and struggled with following that information. Many people, spiritual leaders and teachers included, told me not to follow that information, that "how did he know that, he doesn't know any more now then when he was alive." I knew in my heart that it wasn't the case, he did know and he was protecting us. My ego was still in for the big fight though. I wanted to move and I didn't think anything was going to get better until I did.
Boy was I wrong!
I finally, little by little started to accept that I was supposed to stay in Wisconsin and hold the light here. I started to make peace with that, by finding spiritual sites, groups, and anything else here that would make me like Wisconsin again. I found all kinds of things I had no idea were here. I found all kinds of people I had no idea were here.
One of the reasons (among many) that I wanted to move to Hawaii was for a sense of community. I never felt that I had that here, but it was probably because I isolated myself a bit and was afraid to set down roots because I knew I'd just be moving soon anyway.
I now found a community here. I am now the proud owner of a spiritual healing center in a cute little downtown area of a suburb here. There is a sense of community there. I felt it when I initialy looked at the place. It is Hawaii, right here in Wisconsin, and I love it! Last night we had a dance class and I looked up at my bamboo fans spinning, caught site of my live tropical plants, saw the dancers sweating and the joy on our faces, and then looked outside my giant windows to Main Street to see it snowing! I felt like I was in a tropical paradise, looking out into someone else's snowglobe filled with beauty, but without cold as I was warm.
My place is everything I ever imagined. I am so awestruck by the fact that it is my place, and it is exactly how I pictured it.
I did my first counseling session last night and it went wonderfully. I asked spirit to work through me and boy did it! It was effortless, the whole night was effortless, the dance class last night was just beautiful. There were times when movements ended up happening spontaneously with the class when I was just about to direct them, but didn't need to, we came to them together.
I am in pure bliss and gratefulness.
I am beyond thankful to my father in law for being persistant when I was being stubborn. I am beyond thankful to the spirit of my little neice, who is the driving force of my center.

I am Amanda, and I am not laying low anymore.
I want to do what I came here to do.
I have so much in my heart to give to others.

Thank you all for your loving support on my journey.
Love and thanks especially to Velanthas, who knew this was coming and gave me that little nudge a while ago, and Franco, for continually sharing his parallel journey with me.

Aloha and Mahalo,
Amanda