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hey brothers and sisters,enemies and friends!

Today i am a little tired and frustrated about everything. Here on my planet, beautiful earth the cold creeps in my feet and the darkness comes so early and lays its face upon me.
Yes i am a little weak and feel angry about all this new age which has gone so old in all this years of promises. All this promises and tales about the next gate to be opened and the inflation of chakras to open. DNA strands seem to double every week. The ascension is around the corner and nesara is anounced tomorrow and the galactic forces come to reunite with the starseeds. I hear this since so long a time I am tired of it. Like waiting for Maytreya appearing or waiting for the second coming of Mr.Gods little one. More promises to keep you on the line.
I do not want to wait for things to come. They haven`t come and i am afraid they will never do!
Yes fear is bad, so bad. Still it is real and makes me wake up in the night.
Still no changing, still no waking up.
All i know is this dream called life.
Corruption ,lies, sports and propaganda, endless rows of cars standing still and waiting.
still no remembering of my star heritage.
Only consum and shopping and wishes and frustration.
Where is this light and this love?
What makes you so sure that things are getting better?
I see only more control, taxes and lies.
Less rights and less freedom.
Always just coming around with the money.
Where are all my friends?
Nobody fuckin cares!
They send you a welcome message and never come up again, cause everybody so busy with maintaining life and sitting in front of this goddamned screen all night and day.
And when you think you are out of trouble forever, bang the next stress, the next fight appears.
All these teachers and psychologists and light WORKER s
You just work for the system!
You turned "Lightwork" into a business!
You became mainstream!
Who can even read all this channeled messages?
And why do you take it all for granted, for truth?
I tell you if this little jupiter explodes I eat my right shoe!
And if nibiru appears my left too!
In every message i look for validation or for how special i am in this sad 3D world.
Poor me on earth mission...
And they say:" just be patient"
and the next big meditatio?
I guess 13:13.
or 0.5 : 0.5
And also i really do not like this glitter unicorns and shimmering angels,
God what a crap!
shit or parfume a gypsy healer once said.
This is a sign for rampant decadence.
People eat meat which is of cows who get a massage twice a day.
and now you fill your car with the food of your fellow man?
Unbelievable-
Global warming? A lie ! Sun is heating up! That easy.
The day after tomorrow.
The united states of Mexico and canada?
Just look at europe!
In 2002 they gave us this new currency, Guess what happened.
The prices doubled! They doubled! Not the wages.
Now they are united with their police and justice too.
Escape? Asylum? nope.
View V like Vendetta and replace the bushman with the leader...
And why do the lightpeople do not have contact with the activists in politics?
They have so much in common and still they hate each other.
There is something in this lightbusines which does not meet reality.
It is false and too sweet for my taste.
There are not many people in my surrounding who preach this light style.
Maybe it is hidden maybe.
But now woman start to rule the world and everything gets better.
I wished i choose to be one these days.
My last big trouble i had with a deaf,aggressive,teacher,leftwing,lesbian with a big aggressive dog.

I gave you a child and you didn`t want it, that`s the most that I have to give.
I gave you a dream and you only wake from it.

if you want a sorry here it is