Insight, anyone?!!

Sometimes I find myself sitting in a doom gloom. I pick up other people's vibrations. I am happy I am fine. Then after being around some people, weather they are friends or relatives... I feel everything from lonely to hopeless to not abundant to... all sorts of things... I feel like I am in their "dream" - I want this to end. It's so hard sometimes.

I moved away from my friends and I miss them so much. But I had to get away. And here in MA... there is nothing to do. LOL.
I already shopped through everything on sale an got myself all the necessary winter stuff that was stolen from me in NYC.
I am happy I got better clothings :) I am healing. But I want the world to be more bright. I got myself a couple of colorful clothing here - it changes my mood. I felt cranky so my mother told me to get a showell, LOL. I had anxiety kicking in... I know that this lifetime I was given the opportunity to learn all mistakes I didn't get before. Even though I always felt pure. Sometimes all of the vibrations feel so unbearable. Especially when somebody with no degree in psychology make their judgments, it's so stupid and it hurts. And they are like my friends, relatives most of the times. Even though I know they are pushing me to get better. Well somebody nice here told me to see a homeopath to help me with my emotional issues. I can't stand all this stuff that comes up through my dreams...

The lady at the Feng Shui store in New York told me to get a lion head, although I feel may be it's an emotional issue.

Can somebody bring more insight?!!!

Lana