The Darkness.......

Lightworkers this is a negetive blog entry, or rather a mixed bag from the angle of newbie. I've had a swift and massive transformation so far in a short time. I'm sure this is contributing to the way I feel today.

It's not been the best week really. Massive arguments with parents, my lovely wife and my friends. The latter of which have really suffered. I've systematically pushed them all away from me. I have but a couple left. It's no coincidence that the two left are showing signs of awakening. The others are now out of my life. I've not used malice to push these people away but yet I've done it anyway because they no longer vibe on a similar frequency. In a nutshell I'm weird to them. I'm struggling to interact with work colleagues and seem more and more withdrawn. I feel really alone today.

I was told early in this journey that this would occur, but it's strange how it's still near impossible to plan for. I guess I'm clearing and readying for ascension. I've even abandoned my music friends in an attempt to work on my Soul more and free up space for that instead. I know this has been the right thing to do but why must it hurt so? I'd like to cry quite often looking back on a life that feels years ago now even though it's only been weeks. I've changed beyond recognition.

So I guess my questions are thus: Does this state of Be-ing improve? Is this normal? Am I going to be this way for good now or is it merely the dark before the light? Where does One go from here?

Bless You All. I hope We can share some common ground here.......

Namaste Brother and Sisters of Light.

Ben