A walkin

I have known and moved towards assembling myself into the being that I am here to be for most of my adult life. What is that being well lets start at the beginning. I was born dead, thats right not breathing for a full two minutes. Wow you say how is that possible, funny thing is that I can see the heart break in the room and then the amazement of the doctors when my birh mother willed this still body to take life. I have also gone over this with her in detail some years back and still find the doctor's reactions funny to replay. I am not a big fan of them modern medicine.

It seem that the original host was with me coexisting for some time, I literally lived two different lifes. I was a pretty strange experience the host was a tad timid and I am not what so ever. I know others have a smilar experiene and not being able to talk to someone has let you with this void. Heck many have problem with just being one person.

It was not until a swimming pool accident that i had in 11th grade when a few of us slipped over a fence to do some late nite swimming that I took up a dare to go down the big slide standing up. Well the original host got nervous at the bottom and fell back knocking my head on the end of the slide as I tumbled into the deep end. I can still see the face of my buddies looking down wonderin if I was going to swim up.

Which I did not do and after what seem like a life time they swam down and got me. It was the most peaceful thing I had experienced in my life up until that point. So, on the way to the emergency room I was able to convince them that I was just fine, NOW. Kind of freaked them out to say the least, but they were relieved to not have to explain the circumstances.

From that point forward my drifting chaotic life did a complete 180. For one thing to many I became a crazed banshie taking every dare and going so full throttle that I would scare the bejinkers out of my friends. I also made my dive into the new age at the age of 17 when a friend gave me a book 'The Crack in the Cosmic Egg'. I also seem that I developed what has been a life long habit of rescuing others. As I spent years on an Ocean Beach Patrol and then onto a Ski Patrol and now a volunteer 1st responder. I am just one of the people that runs towards the trouble.

The other part that I know many here are dealing with is the ability to access the dream world, channel or just see the thoughts of others while this was unusual back then it to me is more of the movement into the 5th dimension then it is our personal abilities and we need to nurture it not only in ourself but those around us. One of my fav expressions is that the internet is training wheels for the mind. Like there is a "wi fi" network to connect you computer there is a "mind fi" and once we are all connecting to this ability the collective consciousness will be able to move those mountains.

This other part of you was hidden because the energies that would have come to bear upon you would have probably crushed you. All the more this is where we are at right now, the past now means nothing it is the now, that now is what counts. So let all get with it embrace the changes you feel surging forth as they are blooming like flowers in the spring and you are right on time NOW.

This collective mind will determine the outcome and from there, there is no end in sight.