My Darshan w/Mirabai Devi

Before our row went up for the darshan, I asked Mother Mary to be with me, to guide me and watch over me as needed.  Shortly after, the band that was playing started their next song, titled "Hail Mary".  I knew she was letting me know she was there.  I remembered the last time Mother Mary comforted me after a channeled meditation (about 3 months ago)...I felt that she was with me, and I had been feeling "motherless" for a long time already.  I formed the thought/question of whether she was a Mother of the Catholics only, and she told me that she is the Mother of all people, and I started balling like a baby--I truly felt her with me.  I got the sense that she was drying my tears with her veil--lots of tears came out during that time.  She had already given me a message that she was there when she acknowledged my gift before the meditation started.  I had picked flowers -- yellow, white, & red -- to put in a vase since I knew Mother Mary would be channeled & would be with each of us wherever we were.  I knew she liked flowers, and I wanted to invite her and make it comfortable for her (I also dusted/vacuumed -- couldn't let her come to my dirty place!).  Anyway, as the channeling started, the messenger described Mother Mary, and then said she was holding a bouquet of "red, yellow, and white" flowers.  Woah!  She got my flowers!  I was so overjoyed that she acknowledged my gift.  Anyway, not to diverge, but I wanted to put this in just to give you an idea of my growing bond with Mother Mary.

So, as we lined up to get our blessing, I could feel my body full of nervous energy, almost like static electricity -- it got stronger as I got closer to her.  By the time I was the next one up, waiting for her to finish with the person ahead of me, I could not keep my eyes from tearing.  I was next, and I went up with some trepidation, some excitement, anticipation.  I went up and knelt in front of Mirabai on my knees.  What she does is take you in an embrace, and you hug her at the same time while she transmits the Divine Mother's Love.  I looked at her briefly and tried to hug her, but she held back my shoulders and stared at me right in the eyes.  That was it, the tears just started coming.  I think I was trying to hide, and she wouldn't let me.  After she looked at me for a while and I allowed, and opened up to her...she literally pulled me to her chest and put my head just above her breasts and embraced me tightly with both arms around the back.  I immediately started sobbing like a baby while she was rocking/shaking me -- like all this trapped pain was coming out.  Actually, my whole body was sobbing...vibrating -- a deep, deep sobbing that one has when finally releasing what has been trapped for so long.  It felt like a Mother's embrace, and I felt like a child being truly comforted by a caring, loving presence.  It can't really be explained.

After a while, she lifted me back up and looked at me again.  Then she gently grabbed a tissue and dabbed at the tears in my eyes.  Somehow it had the same feel, it was the same gesture as when Mother Mary was drying my tears.  Again, more tears came at this loving gesture.  She finally took my hands up and I held the tissue to my eyes...meanwhile she put her finger to my third eye, the other hand facing me while doing more energy transmitting.  I finally calmed down some.  As I removed the tissue, I felt some peace...didn't know how long I was there.  It was all sort of surreal.  Then Mirabai gave me some rose petals that she blessed, and the assistants helped me to a seat.  I had to sit by myself for a while.

Afterwards, several times throughout the evening and even today, I've been overtaken with tears just needing to be released.

Every person that goes up experiences something a little different, unique.  Here is a video that shows a little more about what darshan is:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H8TsshYSkGk

Thank-you Mother Mary, thank-you Mirabai, thank-you God!  And thank-you all for letting me share!  Love, Libra88 :-)