Everything is changing

So, I have been watching Lisa Williams on t.v. lately. For those of you who have never heard of her she is a medium who communicates with the dead. She is fabulous. Anyway, I was watching her show last week and she always says that everyone can communicate with their lost loved ones. They just have to be open to it. I went to bed and thought about what she had said and I started talking to my little brother who has passed. Suddenly I felt such an energy pass through the top of my head to my feet. It was very warm and I knew immediately it was him. I was so happy. I started thinking about my grandma & grandpa, whom I lived with when I was little. I had to go to the bathroom so I went & when I got back into bed and had settled in I felt a hand settle on the back of my head. By this time my heart was singing! I started to smell chocolate cake. I had made chocolate cupcakes that night & thought that maybe my husband had left one by the bedside so I turned to look and suddenly I smelled cinnamon rolls very strongly and I knew it was my grams. She was known for her chocolate cake & cinnamon rolls. I went to sleep that night knowing that they were all well & happy. The experience only supports my beliefs and really helps to keep me from living my life in fear. Earlier this year I was dxed with MS. That was in Feb. I was so afraid I would lie in bed at night thinking about the rest of my life and what would happen to me. Around May I decided to live my life the way I choose to not the way the disease dictates me too. I was scared to death of flying, but my husband took me to Hawaii for our honeymoon we never had. After that flight I really realized that fear only has power if I give it power. Now I live my life without fear. I've practically forgotten I have MS. I try things I was always too afraid to do. I have a great voice, but have always been afraid of failing so I was wasting my gift. I have since entered singing contests and may join a band soon, which has always been a huge dream of mine. Not to be famous, just passionate and happy. In fact I used to think I wanted to be famous until I realized that fame has much to do with ego and even if it doesn't it is a very hard & disturbing life to lead. Look at what we have done to Brittney Spears. That poor lost girl! Fame has to be hell. Anyway, my point is that I see the world through different eyes now and the greatest gift in it is that I now have the knowledge to teach my kids that love is all there is. My kids have really taken to this philosophy, but especially my oldest. He is so open to the light. He is a healer, which he discovered through his own belief & knowing. He is an artist and full of love & understanding of all people. Just a true light soul. My life has been changing at such a fast pace lately. The things I throw into the universe are coming to fruition and life has a new, different and beautiful meaning to me now. I no longer care about things. I was never really materialistic, but everyone likes nice things. Now my first thought is what can I do without? How can my life & surroundings be simpler? How am I like him/her? What connects us? Why am I judging him/her when we are one? what do I see in him/her that I see in myself? It has changed my perspective of others as well as myself and forces me to see myself as a whole rather than a singular. And so life is good.