Have not meant to be secretive :-)
I set up a brief profile some months ago thanks to my friend im, and had forgotten about it when reminded to renew my account. In fact it turned out to be a good time to get away from the arduous process of sorting out my belongings before I move from Finland to the States (if all goes well!!!), and activate my spiritual thinking a little. Very quickly hanging out here brought residue to the surface so it's been a little bit tough... but I also have gotten some answers. I was worrying about the state of my health (my spine crashed down when I was a kid, I believe it was due to stress - my life would have been very different without the deformity). and the tediousness of my inner processes. However, here on this site I have received reassurance that others go through similar symptoms and that my spiritual self is indeed unfolding pretty much the way it should.
Anyway, I apologize for not having introduced myself earlier. Personally, I don't really understand secretive people, yet I have become a little bit more secretive in recent years. I apologize for that and want you to know that I am willing to connect with those who are interested to. My natural openness has not always been well received and I'm trying to learn to protect myself in my own way. I think some of that protection is common sense, which is to try and avoid situations that create more stress and confusion in me. There is enough havoc anyway as it is... I have always sought challenges and new adventures, yet my physical self has limits that I've had to learn to respect. I'm dedicated to beauty and truthfulness, yet have had to dig deep into the shadows to see the deep paradoxes of dualism.
My life has been very complex and so I am also having trouble describing it in a limited amount of words. I know many are writing their lives stories just as I am. For me it's really a serious thing that I've devoted my life to. I hope my skills as an author will be sufficient to bring out matters of humanness and spirituality in a way that will actually be read. I hope my art will make more sense when teamed with the text. This is going to be my legacy to the world. I really hope it will not be in vain. I desperately want for my life to have meaning on a deeper level. I cannot live only for myself. I want to give something that other people can receive if they feel a need to. Forcing my views on others is not my intention, and so my path is one in which others are welcome to come and share with me what they feel like sharing.
No need repeating myself: I welcome you to visit my profile if you wish to read and see more. I want to thank those who have greeted me here already and who have approached me! I'm grateful to share experiences, learn of other ways of living life, and to have mirrors in which to see myself more clearly. Love to you all :-).