Indigo independence vs. friendships/relationships?

OK here's the thing! I'm indigo and I have a deep-down desire and need to be alone a lot, to be independent, and to be free to do whatever I want and when I want. Maybe selfish I know but I can't help it, it's the way I am! But on the other hand, I have this need to be with people who understand me and to share life and experiences with, both in terms of friendship and relationships.

My question is, how do others balance their need for these two extremes? I've never had that many true friendships, friends have come and gone, even the good ones, just through a lack of proper connection I guess. I've always stayed clear of relationships through fear and hatred of being tied down, but I still long for that one true person???