The crystal vent

I really have no true purpose of writing this, but I do know that journaling or writing from the heart and mind are known to enhance white blood cell growth, and well...who doesn't want more of those?? So most of this is going to be randomosity and maybe some organization toward the end. i'd say most of this is from my ego mind so don't expect anything too interesting or heart-warming...

I'm basically just a very unorganized person at heart. I'm lacking some kind of connection and I'm taunted every day because of it. I barely have the motivation to write here because I have NO flow! My river is dammed and it keeps building up and there's practically an eco-system in the dam by now! but it's not exactly beneficial for me....only for this body part that is lacking my flow of energy. I barely have a breath. and I think this dam consists of a lottttt of carbon dioxide. I burp whenever I want to because my bodys always trying to rid of the stuff. I feel like i'm a metaphor of mother Earth in that i'm building up too much CO2 and my body can't rid of it fast enough and my O-zone layer is depleting fast! So my CO-2 is escaping through the o-zone holes instead of being re-circulated back into Oxygen!! AHH!!! But I think my body has found a temporary way around it in that it can split CO2 into Oxygen and Carbon for beneficial use. I can't wait to master this body consciously though. I think the CO2 could be used as a reservoir to turn into crystalline energy.
Whenever I look at things I see my crystal in the backgrouond, and it's multi-colored and oh so pretty! It's a twisty turny sapphire like substance with pink, yellow, neon blue, green with a purple/green aura and i'm lacking some colors like red and orange so I think those are the colors/chakras I need to ground to! I started seeing my crystal (which is always in my center vision like a crosshair like in a first person shooter game) when I took LSD-25 and grounded to my pineal gland. I'm very crown chakra/third eye oriented so I find my ground a lot easier up there than in my lower 3 chakras. My pineal is so luminescent and bright but it's oh so blocked by calcium deposits in my pituitary gland. It's uggggly. I really gotta heal this. But I feel so safe in my pineal/crown that I just don't do much about it until I get the right tools I need (ayahuasca...my healer!). This crystal I see is definitely inside my body and it's definitely my working tool toward the universe. I think it's stored in my higher heart/thymus chakra because that's where all the first 9 chakra's blocks reside. I'm very stuck in the 10th dimension. I've been stuck for over a year now. By being stuck here I am ohhh soo confused when to an outside person my problems might be perfectly evident and obvious. It's a place where the ego, mind, soul and heart duke it out for victory and, well....no one's won yet! But as SOON as I break free from the 10th dimensional block I just might finally find my twin flame in the 11th dimension! I'm stoked!! I can't wait to feel TRUE love again. I'm working off of love resin from my past relationship/past life (which was only 2 years ago when my karma was reset) so I'm really living in both worlds right now. What an interesting place to be for both of us, old and new earth LOOK the same in 3D but man oh man is New Earth SOOO MUCH more pretty! I plan to be an ambassador of new earth some day, because damn will this planet be a hot spot vacation home for the cosmos pretty soon. Once we clear all the density.....get rid of those meany illuminati jerks. They don't like us and they should just go home. Or maybe they're here unconsciously waiting for our healing. Dark souls need love too...Infact we're at that point in universal time where all the darkest souls ever born are beginning to heal. FINALLY Archangel Michael says. It's been eons for this time to concur. Finally a dense enough world where empty souls can find light and become Angels themselves. We're finally waking up from a very long dream that some souls will and are having the hardest time imaginable waking up from. But that just means more fun for us in healing all the wounded! Legs are for love, hands are for healing and minds are for makeup. I need to breathe.