This is how I feel...

I sit here today hungry to connect, hungry for love, and hungry to love. I need to stay in constant service to others for this helps my heart to stay open and to stay in the love I was created to be.

Often it seems as though I get cought up in things on earth that consume my time, my energy forgetting the big picture. It seems as though I sometimes live a life of reaction instead of creation. Does anyone know what I mean? I get consumed with the duties of being a Mother and keeping the family going on a even keel that I loose my balance.

I find when I stay in service to others, the importance of my issues seem to fade to the back of my mind and I find peace. My heart is craving to do the work it wants to do but my mind gets stuck in the everyday struggles. I guess what I am trying to say is it seems my heart and my mind are on two different pages at times.

I feel I need to decide where I stand. What am I going to allow to run my life. Am I going to stay here or am I going to go. Am I going to live in fear or am I going to trust and allow.I feel I am holding on to my past attatchments even stronger then before. I am afriad to let go of the things that hurt me!!! I have no doubt in my mind my power to create so why wont I?

The one thing I know, the one thing that never changes is the love I feel for all that is and I am truly grateful.

Thank you for letting me ramble thank you for helping me release.

Love Kim