A Moment in Between (Poem)

“A moment in between”

It happened with a quote, a some one else’s note
A thought upon a separate time, not to far from yours or mine
A note of sorts inclined to soar and sound a wave across the shore
Effecting every single chord of past and future evermore

Between the crux and a labyrinth of mine
A pattern stilled beneath the twine
Dimension soft and harmonically aligned,
Combined with sense and absence of time

A year in a blink and a week in year
A silence filled past with memories of tears
A happy place found, the final rebound
And to let it all go without causing a sound

But when bad turns to good and horizons collide
What all you have left is only a distance, a time
A place where the now seemed so infinitely lined
And the moments were squished and held all out in your mind

In a pocket of sorts or a top secret place
For you just to remember for selfishly sake
The moment you caught that hits you right in your face
To realize it all happened and was only a taste

Ladies and Gentlemen, daughters and sons
The ego is tied naturally close, it’s one/one
The games set and matched at the sound of the gun
Both, neither, either, them, there’s, those and then some

At the start of the gate the commitment was fate
Each character balanced in an opposite way
Where the lights speak to sound just to keep it awake
And your hairs stand on end and you feel eternally safe

In the blink of a flash of a land with a smell
Of whatever you want it to be or to dwell
A perfect alive wear the sun hits the sky
A place wear the heavens exist, a blink of an eye

Think what you want and reflect back to me
The pain I requested if it weren’t you it’d be me
And similarities crash in and a million to one
Once the brightest of lights, now as dark as the sun

In heaven or hell, or what you will say
In a world and a universe nothing but grey
In the space in between, in the plots and the notes
In the meaning you meant in the words that you wrote

To intend to give love, then get lost in the plot
And it all ends up backwards and tied up in a knot
Death and a shadow, it shades you from light
And the blood you can smell from the taste of that knife

A dream I once had, all lost in the shore
Tried to follow my foot prints, but got lost even more
Sand crept in my toes and I denied that I know
That it all that I dreamt of was in fact and is so

But only a dream and so did it seem
A land where the walls floors and ceilings were green
A soul found its one and when found out the sun
Was the same as the first end to the beginning of one

In each of our universes separate and same
We all get to go, fight and win at the games
And be who we want to be one in the same
All for what, what we think even, even our names

Placed just shy of 3rd, no physical thing
A race once with promise, washed right down the sink
A universe passes you at the peak and you think
How could a dream make a sound like a tink

Then a second of time and moment prevails
A glimmer of hope held up by two nails
Reminding you all is different which makes it the same
And that you focused on winning as well as the pain

The selfish of sorts, all lined up at court
No more guilty or innocent along with the sport
The focus just slipped and nothing had changed
The breath still breathes in and the feelings remain

And along with the rhythm created by song
A musical masterpiece stuck in this moment so long
So recent the taste on your tongue from that thong
All represents a choice on that bridge at the dawn

A time born anew that forgets that its death
A beginning that’s right, despite all the rest
In a land where all wrong is merely your best
All your answers just melt, draining center to chest

And then the earth quakes, debris hits the lake
The once solid illusion becomes fluid and takes
The breath from your solitude safest of place
And leaves you with you staring right in your face

In each of our worlds all separate and same
You know the outcome, in fact created the game
You can choose to win or let the happy, remain
Stay still and be silent for it’s only a game

The crowd can be brutal and uplifting with praise
Their focus on self in its entertaining ways
All while no thought put into the words that they say
Rooting for players to just give it away.

And in a near universe not unlike your own
A child just wanted to feel, if just over the phone
And was happier than he could ever think to be
And didn’t have to do anything, but to only be me

But somehow he caused a dreadful insight
A fear trickled down the connection overnight
Pressure built up and released between frights
That the notion of worlds was being destroyed by the light

Even knowing that the highs would also bring lows
And sometimes the fear through the actions did show
But fear in itself is the key to the gold
And the only change felt was the crowd in the fold

For the players untouched and the temperature told
That all was ok, good and no need to be bold
With a hint of confusion unique to the change
A struggle was created by both with one name

Life produced product of pattern and killed
A dream that was had and protected at will
A loss felt so great that the moment, a shrill
Despite all has happened, and even what’s thought still

A place you wake and just savor the taste
Hold it close because it’s your most favorite space
No one to have it but you, how bout that for fate
Be sure to gaze in a mirror and look at your face

A reflection returned from a thought to a form
Nothing seems wrong, but sits right at the door
And the world you once thought, was not as before
And all you are is caught in this moment some more

I wish to convince you that nothing has changed
That I’m able to balance if you’re willing to play
And in turn without blinking or a giving in way
Yet no time has past and just all in a day

Holding on so tight to what wasn’t even
With a past as if nothing was shared or given
The good and bad times and the recited lines
With actions that completely destroy all of time

If something was said and is still stuck in your head
And the sayer that said it has changed or seems dead
Yet the phrase still rings, echoes and you beg it instead
Just to realize that happiness is all you’ve been fed

I was who did this, it was never once you
I was the asshole that chose to be blue
It was me all along, I created this song
And then all of a sudden from out of this bong

A whiff of a smell, that lingered for years
It always has been here, yet I was too stupid to hear
It hit me and poked me and prodded and fought
It teased me and tickled but still I saw naught

You tried to tell me that all was a thought
And the feelings were best crammed all up in a box
And to absolute do this, exactly one wants
Regardless if illusions will effectively taunt

It’s never the end, nor the beginning of dreams
But it’s always right now it is the space in between
Within it our memories of solitude beams
That the life we are living is only a means

Life promotes growth and the demons and fiends
All mixed together with only an illusion of teams
Negative words caught up with positive means
All confusing each other and shredding the seams

How can a good intention, a genuine one
Stray so far away from where the intention stemmed from
Even still sitting here creatively phased
A pinch on my arm to make sure reality is away

And back again, a circle, rotating round
Spinning and spinning and not to be found
A place that was here has taken off from the ground
And moved on to a better, tone, chord and a sound

Good times and bad, all is so sad
Makes you want to just curl up and place your head in a bag
But you don’t, and the thought says don’t be a drag
Stand up shake it off and be the friend that you had

Then another full circle and back around again
Not being able to say what you still hold within
And as new beginnings come mixed up with the ends
The times that were had were had with a friend

Then all worlds collide and lighting it strikes
And everything seems to have always been right
And the silence that always held comfortably tight
Is still there and I didn’t hear it all because of my sight

I can’t take things back nor should I suppose
Because nothing is real, why doesn’t anybody know
But it is more than anything to that person who knows
That their feelings are more than they feel when they show

……..And it’s all ok…….
The sun comes up and the children play
And the world that seemed so dark and grey
As if nothing had happened and got in every things way

It was me all along so I’ll say it times ten
Self, I suppose, we’ve done it again
But this time it was I that committed the sin
And I was refusing to let someone in

And even with that, no fault to be had
Just one on the look out for the enemy of sad
With patterns prevailing and the wind picking up
I hold my head high and fight the knot in my gut

I take a step forward and remember your fear
I notice the courage you had a whole year
And I’m reminded of mine and your words in my ear
To remember it’ll all be ok, as we wiped away our tears

Love and lust and jealousy rage
A journey sacrificed each other at the stake
A burning flame with the smell of flesh
With now even more time to sit and rest

The future now brighter with growth from the gain
With all the passed memories of silence and fame
With shared moments unique to the players that played
With death it brings life and we’re never the same

But a luxury waits, just right at the gate
A chance to go back to a memory of fate
When a time during then lifted pain from its well
And sprinkled some life on a lost hardened shell

A gift that was given I used for the wall
I stood on it because it made me feel so tall
It lifted me up and I regained myself
And I cherished the giver so much that I fell

Toppling onto the being that gave more than self
Was lost and was found just right before hell
All along telling me my words back to me
That all that I want is for you to be happy

And I threw it away because the path had been crossed
And a thought that was once the greatest of all
Led me to hear and another to there
Both feeling the same, yet why so unclear

And with time ticking by and the negative fades
A glimmer of hope lands right on this page
And I say that it doesn’t have to be a war that is waged
But a trust that we know ourselves in this race

Back around again to now
Unsure why or even how
Yet here again, without a sound
Placing my bare feet on the ground

Did I choose this I mean could it be
A person that once was lost like me
Knew more of what there is in store
And I’m the one who is the bore

A season a reason and words back to me
I was right all along though refusing to see
I figured out what gift was requested from me
So I’ll give the time in between cause it was given to me

-Hipnosha-