"My odd fuzzy day" 9/18/07

"My odd fuzzy day"
Tuesday September 18 2007

Communicated by my Higher Self

Well Annie did not have that much energy today. She emailed with a friend back in NYC in the morning. Then swam in public pool. Then a tiny bit of emailing. Then read mystery on bed. Then fell asleep.

When she woke up she did not know what to be enthusiastic about, nothing seemed to grab her. Her guess is, it was such a high energy weekend, this is a lull afterwards.

I would describe it more as a move from spot to spot. Her attitude is always, “if this is what grabbed me so much yesterday, then it must grab me so much today, and if it doesn’t grab me today, then something is wrong with me, or out of whack with me.”

But this is not exactly how things work. Annie, darling, how do you think change happens? How do you think something new starts? How can it be that today is same as yesterday. Perhaps what grabbed you so much over past 4 days, is losing its hold now, just because a change is happening. A change always involves, leaving an old place, and arriving at a new place. But you forget that between the old place, which you have left, and the new place, where you have not yet arrived, you are nowhere. That is the odd feeling you have now, and have been feeling off and on all day, that you are nowhere.

It bothers you, because you assume it means something is wrong. Yet if you were watching an old weather pattern break up, and the new weather hadn't come in yet, you would find it perfectly natural to be watching the transition unfold. In fact you would find anything else unnatural. Either that the old weather refused to change ever. Or that new weather arrived without the old having a chance to break up. And you do not mind one bit being in the middle of the two weathers. It seems a natural place to be.

It’s the same with your mind, darling. It is completely natural to be in a place where what was yesterday and the day before is departing, and what will be tomorrow hasn’t come in. I am sorry you feel so loose ends about it, and are dismayed that nothing grabs you. You love being passionately caught up in things. But you would not mind it so much, if you were confident, that something new is coming in, and that you will love it.

The trick my darling is simply to weather it. Don't frustrate yourself by wanting something which is not happening. And guard against thinking, that because it is this way now, it will stay like this. And don’t get involved in trying to name what you think is lacking. As hard as it may be for you Annie, just go with the flow. It's a good time for escapism. Read your library book. Think gentle thoughts. Take the pressure off yourself. If it’s a day where nothing happens, so be it. And if your mind is a little fuddled, so what! Altho the mind never sleeps, occasionally it likes to relax itself.

All my love to all the lightworkers here on the forum
from Annie's Higher Self