Letting Go In LOVE

This morning I asked my guide if I was doing everything necessary to serve my higher purpose and got a definite "No." I have to admit my response to this was a surprised "UH OH". So I searched, I asked questions. I sensed that it had something to do with the huge life change that I am embarking on and started asking questions in that direction. Finally clarity was mine. My cats!
I am moving out of the country in January. I am very excited about this and have a peace about leaving behind so many dear ones. My children who are grown, grandchildren,family and friends for I know all is as it should be with each of them. But my cats will be going to live with my son and that has been a big worry for me.
Felix who is 16yrs and Terror who is near six have been my constant companions. They wake me with love every morning and sleep curled up with me at night. They are at the door when I return greeting me with their beautiful presence. To say that I will miss them when I have left is a huge understatement!
I know that they will be well taken care of with my son and his wife, but I have just been worrying about them feeling abandoned and missing me. Ahh, but a great lesson was in store for me this morning.
As I looked at them I knew I had to let them go, commit them to Love and trust that life for them too would be as it should be. With many tears I let them go, I felt the grief well within me and held the pain. Then in love I said goodbye to the pain,worrying,the fear for their well-being and hung on to the peace of “and so it is.”
After wiping away my tears I looked at them and filled with the Love that I have for them, Spirit said to me, Now, love yourself as you love them because they are you! Right then I understood an enormous truth that I just haven’t been able to latch on to so to speak. It’s one thing to know something, it’s quite another thing to LIVE something.
The Pure Unconditional Love that I have been giving to them for all these years has been the love that I have for myself! But yet I have been living it for them, but not for myself. As I looked at my two beautiful “boys” I saw the Love in which I AM!