I'm here, what's next?

I’m trying to follow my spiritual path, but I’m so confused. In the past year I’ve allowed myself to shed the religious programming I received from 16 years of Catholic schools. I realized that a lot of what I was holding on to was fear and guilt that was deeply ingrained. Overall I feel at peace with this, but it has left me with somewhat of a more critical eye or suspicion in regards to religion and spiritual beliefs in general.

I do not mean to criticize or belittle anyone’s beliefs here, but I find it difficult to digest a lot of the material on channelings, ascended masters, etc. What makes these things anymore real than a religion that has been around for 2000 years?

My spiritual process has involved trusting myself, forgiving myself, and following those intuitive impulses. I have also embraced master numbers – which I’ve been seeing for years. 11:11 was the most prominent and I started seeing that all the time around 2003. It frightened me and the numbers disappeared. This past year I’ve been noticing 111,222, 333, 444 and 555. I see them regularly and probably at least once a day. I still cannot fully grasp what this means. Where are the messages coming from and what am I being called to do? I’ve done research on this, but I still have not found any definitive answers that satiate me.

I’ve felt that all my life I’ve been charged with a special mission, which has caused me a lot of pain in relating with others and accepting myself. I just feel that once the path is revealed I will wholeheartedly follow it, but what is it? I feel a particular resonance with the ascension process although I don’t entirely understand it. What is a reliable good source I can find information on about this?

I have found many bright helpful souls here and look forward to the guidance that will be provided.

Joy and Love,

Shannon