Many questions...

I have watched a lot of the David Wilcock videos and read the material and I think he is a great person, however after having said that there is some stuff in his material that makes me pretty much panicky. I really don't like to do that either. The stuff that has me the most confused is just this, he says he channels and is in touch with Ra and Ra states that we must die to go into the ascension, but die from what? Then on the other hand you have so many other videos and materials that say we are going to die from: The Earth exploding, massive nuculear wars, massive storms, the planet x. I don't know what to believe.

I do know that deep below my exterior that I am a good person. I guess the fear I have most of all is in four years time my kids will be 17 and 12. I cannot imagine seeing the horror of them or myself dying in front of each other from massive storms or anything else that is catastrophic. To me that is horror not enlightenment.

There are also other things that are which bothering me and I sincerely hope that I'm not bringing anyone down because I'm not trying to. I'm just starting my path and I feel utterly stupid for not having found all this out sooner. I guess I had my head stuck in the sand. Some are saying that not everyone will make it to 4d. What are the deciding factors? I mean I try to be a good person, though sometimes I give in to anger, sometimes I use swear words, I smoke, I don't drink, sometimes I have judgements but try not to. It's very very very hard. So I'm not sure what to make of it. If anyone could help shed some light on this subject and help me out I'd be grateful.

Peace, love and light,
Kristina