Does anyone feel like me?

Hi,
My name is Lela, I'm 25, and I'm not really sure where to start...
I started researching human angels to try and find some answers. I don't know if I'm crazy, haha, or maybe it's something else.

A little while ago I had a kind of spiritual awakening. I found myself lost. I didn't feel that any contemporary religion really reached me, and yet, I knew I had found an astounding dedication to the concept of Divine Love.

Then, as I begun my own spiritual enlightenment, I started seeing things in my meditation. I would find myself staring at the sky, and more predominately, the clouds and start tearing up with a sense of longing. I narrowed it down and it's familiar to being homesick. Not surprisingly, anyone I mention this to thinks I'm nuts.

I also started noticing that my friends were going through a lot of turmoil, and I would say things that felt so natural and they would tell me that I helped them immensely. I didn't intend to. I feel awkward and confused, like I'm supposed to be doing something, some calling, and yet I don't know what it is.

I started thinking today that maybe someone knew what I was feeling. Something told me to search for "human angels" and this is where I'm at. I've had two spirit guides for the last couple months, a phoenix and a cougar, but I get the impression that this is something I have to figure out for myself.

I'm very scared. I don't want to assume that I'm something I'm not, but I was curious if anyone might understand. I really appreciate your time. Thank you.