Can you believe this?

Hey Guys, hope all of you are doing well on this fine evening. I'd like to start out by saying that I feel pretty good. My ascension symptoms in the begging where pretty choppy emotionwise. I dond feel mush physical pain as much as mental.. But anyways. I am settling down now and receiving the new energies with a better mind set.
I would like to talk about a couple of things. Ascension.. I am begging to understand this 3rd dimension of existence. Although it is said that this is not the density in which we understand, that being the 5th density. However, im getting the hang of how to stay positive (feeling goo) the majority of the time and less negative.
I did a lot of reading up to this point about what we are doing here for when i awakened I felt this deep desire to try and understand what I am doing here! After reading the RA material and the book i am currently reading called Wanderes and Walk-ins. It has defineatly helped in understading a little more about what we are doing here but what I have com to ultemetly understand is that I dont need to understand. Why not?
I can see what the Ascended masters, and all enlighted beings said when they meant that we are here to learn lessons. And that is so true. This has changed my paradigms in increadible ways. Now instead of getting angry when my roomate doesnt take out the garbage I use it to grow. I cant change him. I can only set an example and feel good about doing it.
I used to analize every second of my life (and still do, but I guess thats what virgos have in common) but I can now live freeir knowing that it all going to be all right.
I was walking on campus today and asked myselff "what if this is our last 3d incarnation? (those who are awakened)" I mean, If you are awakened and conscious of the fact that the more postive you are the higher your vibration and you also know you are here to learn lesson and are learning them, not to mention 2012 comming up. So, i mean, is this it? Deep down I kind of feel that this is what I came here for. For the Ascension.
Ever since i was a kid and to this moment I dont care about material things in an obsesive way or am very ambitious in an ego satisfying manner.
When I was younger I used to feel very strange because my parents (which i adore) were always telling me that i needed passion and ambition, cleaerly because i didnt show it. but I knwo why now. I i like to do is feel good, make people feel good, experience, have a good time (in a healthy way) and all this is just a sharade (i hope i spelt that right).
So basically i found my mission in life. I am a wanderer who has begun to remember. I am here to feel good, make my loved one feel good, and meet more brothers and sisters to feel good with. because the more positive the vibrations, the easier it will be for everyone, i think.
Please comment. This was just a free write, the first one ive done.
Peace and love to everyone.
Namaste!