How are you?

Have you noticed very few people stop to hear the answer to that question? I wonder why people even ask it. I think it has more to do with social conditioning than people actually caring how you are. And then for those that answer, do you ever really tell the truth? Do you ever tell how you're really doing? For most of us i think the truth, at times, is so overwhelming for us that we don't dare unleash it on others.

There seems to be a lack of depth. A lack of true compassion. For lightworkers, i think sometimes we're afraid to really answer that question because often we're not doing as 'ok' as we profess to be. Often, we're not feeling 'ok' about anything in particular and so we don't answer that question truthfully or we merely say, 'I'm fine,' because that's what we know is expected of us and to answer that question in any other way would mean that something is wrong with our perception of this reality. There's something we're not 'getting.' We must meditate more. We're not being diligent enough in our practice or we're caught in the 'drama' here so that's why we're not doing 'ok.' Or we should be viewing things as, 'Everything is ok even if i don't feel it is, therefore i'm really ok.' We tend to feel bad for not feeling 'ok' because we should know better.

It is not easy to exist here. It is very hard. This is why our memories are wiped coming in because the knowledge would be too much to carry in this body, in this place. At the moment, forgetfullness is not an option so you must remember and still manage to live a 'life.' Lately, i see much beauty here but i also see much ugliness, sadness and despair. Being an empath i also feel it and it is too much to bear at times. I often ask my 'people' if they'll just come and pick me up. Planet be damned. I'm ready to go. This place sucks! They tend to let me rant, then usually put me to sleep for awhile but no mothership comes. And i wake up and i'm still here. I often feel marooned here. I shield alot but lately the shields aren't working well and the despair of others gets through. Watching the news is torture but i know i have to keep up on what's happening. If we're all divine sparks of the Infinite, why, why, why do people here do such mean, hateful, despicable things to each other. Have they forgotten from whence they came so much? And it seems noone cares. Everyone is insulated in their little worlds of pain. Noone wants to know how you are because they're in so much pain themselves they can't fathom hearing about yours.

So...
How are you?