EviesDream's blog

I don't have to hurt anymore...No more pain! It feels awesome to finally come to this bridge and pass it. It's ok a painful journey has it's rewards.....No More Pain! I can leave it behind.....I'm whole again....Myself and no one else....I don't have to be anyone but myself.....I love me! I am perfect....No one can take that away from me because I am whole!

Today I've come to realize..What it really means to come full circle. My best friend in the whole world just pointed the way. I know she was talking about herself tonight. But as I was listening guess what "duh" I got hit in the head tonight! I have to let go.....

It's late....my mind is racing...the thoughts I have are in a jumble...It's funny because I know what I want.....that's not the problem.....the problem is getting the thing that I want the most and being able to correctly identify it when I see it....the problem is pacing myself till I do.....and the problem is waiting till I see it.....ha-ha you say....well so do I.....but then I think....how bad

Last night I was so tired...I was seeking comfort and refuge...I wandered looking for some solace and then they came to me. They sat me down beside them...No need for words from them...They gathered me real close you see and held me in their arms...They softly touched my forehead and softly let me know. That I was loved so deeply and I could fall asleep.

It hit me tonight....I guess I yearn for more...It has to do with knowledge but somehow there is more...It has to do with companionship with someone who shares my views...A person that I can talk to and listen to for sure....It has to do with contact, with questions, with hands on perspectives....Reading and learning is wonderful...but for me there needs to be more....So here I sit tonight realizi

This wonderful warmth that envelopes me. It's changed my view on life...Instead of viewing things with melancholy....I see it with pure joy...The things that used to bother me have changed to be instead....A way for me to understand, to value and comprehend...I try to bridge the gaps differently and only speak of love. I stop and think inside me and things just seem to click.

Here I am, I can feel you through the light. I look around me and I see you all standing there surrounding me. I feel blessed and honored to say the least.

To shed the old "me" is a step in the right direction. It feels uncomfortable to keep this "skin" on. So little by little I'm looking through these old forgotten memories and letting them go. This mental "attic" is cluttered and full but little by little I'm making headway. It's funny because every time I pick something up I look and remember what "It" felt like so long ago.

I’ve come home I feel them out there and know I’m not alone. I had seen them all as lights joined together in purpose. But now I get to see them in their physical bodies. It’s a strengthening for me it allows me the understanding and joy to know that I have this family out there striving to achieve the same basic things that I’m working on.