Cyrin's blog

Wow the energy is rough what is happening...again! Tired of constant emotional withdrawals..or is it more like deposits?

Channeling is to my mind passe, as it is seeking knowledge from without. The one who figures he or she is channeling is in fact drawing from some source of universal wisdom, THE Source...I guess is the best way to think of it...and is doing so from their very own mind. I have noticed several channelers who consistently channel Arch Angel Michael, yet each one of them speaks totally differently.

Early in my spiritual search I had an inner vision that I was on a Twin Flame path. I walked through a New Age book store one day, and a book about it almost fell on my head, adding the conviction that the Universe had something for me, to my visionary feeling. I immediately thought I was very special and that I was rare and had been singled out for something very lofty.

I keep dreaming of small children and people from my past. They appear as they were in my life, and I relate to them the exact same way. But then they become more dynamic, and they leave me. I call out to them, trying by whatever means to keep them there. I am terrified at the thought of loosing them. IN some of the dreams they change and morph into someone slightly new. They smile at me.

Many aspects of fear are in the neighborhoood. We can't escape it unless we stick heads in the sand. Lots of groaning and complaining and hurting, both others and the self. First self . We probably at this exact time all agreed to feel quite a jolt of fear now and then as the world news and tv reports amplify to us daiily.

I'm a blogger, and bored, I am a seeker, who has not scored. A wanna be jogger who can't any more, can't run, can't hide and cannot do more. Cannot do less, still cleaning the mess, and would like to be free of the boredom in me.