christenwypy's blog

This is a doom and gloom blog. I want to warn you up front. Please don't read it if you don't want to. I don't want to ruin someone else's positive vibes. :)

Maybe it's me because I have been so bogged down lately with DOING things or maybe their has been a shift but I don't feel like just working on myself is enough anymore.

we don't think in vibrations anymore
since the invention of words
so we are that much more removed from reality
english may be the furthest removed (?)

baby talk is where it's at
coos and squeals and cries
really tell it like it is
(and come on you KNOW what they're saying- you feel it)

thinking in words to generate emotions
and emotions give out vibes that draw to them like vibes

Last night I went to a dark place.

When I was a teen sometimes I would say "I wish I was dead" but I never really wanted to be. I have always loved life. Even when it is bad it's good.

Could it be? Have I DE-scended? Certainly feels as if I have.

I blogged yesterday about how perfect everything is and my realizations while fasting. Of course today I feel not quite as high. I'm a little unsure. I keep slipping like I spoke about before. Yet it just came to me that feeling bad is actually a gift. Each time I am able to keep it together through feeling bad I wind up showered in blessings and good feelings after.

I realize now that God is merciful. Not that He is a man in the sky (or even a man at all) that is judging us mercifully. Not at all. But God being consciousness, super consciousness, gives us second chances when we need them. At first what seemed like such hard work and so much effort is proving to be easier than what I was doing before.

I was just sent this in email and I wanted to share it with everyone-

AFTER YEARS OF TELLING PEOPLE CHEMOTHERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY TO TRY ('TRY', BEING THE KEY WORD) TO ELIMINATE CANCER, JOHNS HOPKINS IS FINALLY STARTING TO TELL YOU THERE IS AN ALTERNATIVE WAY.

Cancer Update from Johns Hopkins:

I might be too tired to write this but here goes...

Saturday 8/16 was amazing for me. I was truly high on life. I don't mean just happy. I mean there were seriously some awesome endorphins being released inside of me and exploding like orgasmic dynamite all over me. It was so awesome. I am recounting it simply to help myself (and others) maybe pinpoint how to make this happen at will.

When I was first fully awakened in 1997 it was in the mountains at a place called Tripod Rock on Pyramid Mountain. I keep being told to write about this but I am not ready or Inever have the time cut out to really concentrate on it. I'll get there though. Regardless, I wanted to say that since that time that place has always been a source of strength for me.