Al-Zian-Tal-81's blog

Like so many of us...

I say that because I hope its true, I think it is.

I met a turtle while meditating.

We met in the rain, on a hard stone surface, surrounded by dirt and and plants. It was cold and uncomfortable and hard and I hated it.
We were in a multileveled kind of terrain. Like a very thick forest with mounds of dirt and growth and big roots, so lots of water was in motion and trickling.

As we all follow our own sign posts I am sure we are discovering different truths and aspects of existence with different techniques and ideologies showing the way. So of course I never know how helpful any of my experiences will be in guiding others but sharing our triumphs with each other seams right.

In the past year I have been experiencing so much and then understanding so little. At first it was empathy and curiosity. Then it became obsession and new found energy. Now I have learned a little I understand I have a purpose but am not sure what it is yet. It is to seek truth, for myself and for others. But I am not sure how to pursue it.

It has been a very emotional year. The events in my life and how I feel have all been very heavily affected by energies I do not understand, guided by a destiny I struggle daily to glimpse.

I had forgotten this place, and the other parts of my feverish quest for understanding. I had learned so much so quickly that I remember being dizzy with it and I remember writing letters on a page over and over until a pattern emerged and inside was my name, Zian--Tal. I had forgotten that too until I got the automated e-mail for this site.