Sorablue's blog

Last night, I came home from a very unsatisfying guitar lesson and felt very imbalanced. It had been a long day, in a session of long days filled with drama from work, finances, infatuation and indecision about the future. Frankly, my head was spinning and all I needed was sleep. However, I had to return several phone calls before I could achieve that goal.

After a brief, but beneficial relationship, I have returned to being single. I am not sad or depressed by this prospect because I have lived this lifestyle for the majority of my adult life. Frankly, I like being alone and independent and being able to live my life for me. There are wonderful benefits to it which I think people forget as they get engaged and walk down the aisle.

It seems like lately I have been drifting away from my spiritual path. I haven't meditated in ages or communicated with my guides on a consistent basis in a long time. Frankly, I have been feeling sort of blah with a low vibration. Another factor is that I was watching 'A Haunting' a television program we have on The Discovery Channel in the US.

In the northern hemisphere, late May and June is the time of year people naturally associate with transitions: beginnings and endings, letting go and moving on. It seems like everyone I know is rushing around to attend high school and college graduations and celebrations for friends and family.

So, life has finally settled down to a certain degree for me. I have moved to a new apartment my relative's property in a rural area. This has been somewhat of an adjustment because I was living in an actual town with my roommate/best friend and her dog. This change, however, was definitely needed because I need to live on my own.

We sleepwalked danced through lifetimes,
Attracting and repelling,
Building each other up,
Tearing each other down.

Until one day,
Some of our brothers and sisters grew up,
Escaped from the cave, climbed toward the light.

They begged us to follow,
We cursed them,
Screaming, crying and destroying ourselves,
We fell further into the void,

For most of my life, I have searched for 'my purpose.’ I figured if I uncovered this great mystery, my crazy life would become smooth. This whole search became my life obsession which prevented me from living in the moment, and at times, enjoying my life. Frankly, I think I went about the whole process wrong.

Lately, I have been researching different spiritual terms, such as star seed, indigo/crystal, empath, angel, etc. I am fascinated by people who connect to these terms so strongly and seem to have a Eureka moment saying: AHA! That is me! It explains so much!

The changes started,
With meteors falling from the sky,

I stared at the lights raining to Earth,
Feeling small,
Feeling connected with everything.

My soul breathes and pulses within me
Expanding and contracting like the universe above me.

I am not thinking of past sins, burdens or fears,
because

This moment,
I could walk on water,
Catch the stars before they crash to Earth.

On this night,
she dreams of an old friend,

Whispering of a place beyond time.
Eden in Spring where
Day and night dance in unison,
The flowers bloom, bright, vivid,
and the animals live in the forests,
lakes and rivers and sea
unharmed and thriving

The Secret Garden exists, he reassured her,
We must seek at every opportunity,