robindranoth's blog

I have never really been able to breathe meaningfully, which I realize makes it difficult to live in the present, also true for me. I am one of those souls who has learned to live waiting for the other shoe to drop, and often times it has.

Or so I believe. I did some further investigation into the company soliciting people to work from their homes, helping those who have paid off their FHA notes. Needless to say, the companies are referred to by HUD as 3rd party tracers, as opposed to independant contractors assisting as part of a 3rd party recovery system.

Ok, so those of you kind souls who are informed of my current situation regarding my finances. Today, I was writing in my journal to heaven that I really needed some money to pay my bills and be able to care for my eyes and teeth etc. I appologized to God for only being able to see winning the lottery as my only hope.

My pity party is pretty much over. I am greatly appreciative to all who responded with clarity, honesty, and kindness, which was every single one of you.

Thank you for not judging me, and calling me a spoiled brat. I cried, wrote angry volumes, and cried some more.

Today is a new day, and I know I am that much further on my way. Oh, there is a poet deep inside!:-)

Thank you All for the support and wisdom you shared with me. It is a keepsake that I will treasure, and probably look at often over the coming weeks. It is my heaven sent "I can do this" message.

Love and gratitude.

Robin

Money ain't just gonna drop from the sky no matter how much faith I have! God helps those who help themselves! I am so fed up with thinking I can manifest anything without action, and for that matter without potential sacrifice. If I want to move out of this relationship, this house, and this state, I have to do something other than suffer and pray. I have to take action!

Guilt, why do I feel guilt for setting boundaries with those closest to me? Probably because of past conditioning. I am at a point in my own creation where I am no longer willing to be whined at and made to feel selfish for wanting things for myself. Yet, I know my family is not going to be thrilled by what I am sure they will consider mom being selfish. Doesn't she even care how we feel?

I received a distance healing from a light worker on this site. It was profound. The effects are life changing for me. Needless to say it speaks volumes for the intentions of the loving souls that are gathered here. I am deeply grateful to God, my Angels, and to All of you.

Robin

Paradoxical, yes very I would say. In everyones soul mission there is divine paradox. Many of the great teachers speak of it and in it, rather fluently.

Someone Please help me understand the difference. I know creating expectations when dealing with the Divine never works. So, how do you hold positive images without creating expectations?

God knows I am thankful for each and every response.

Blessings.

Robin