Got over it!

I really got over it Im beck to normal

after publishing this blog 3 night ago theres been such a relife for me
i can feel the love you send me

I will leave this article for the sake of my insights and for the sake of Gaia

Gaia my Kitten passed away yesterday evening. I took her beck home for a sterilization she didnt wake up .
I have a feeling she died from sadness she had rugh life. such a gentel soul beautiful kitten she was. only 5 mont old at list she died in her sleep
and still Yonatan my other cat is here next to me.

Im so luky im able to share my feelings with my wonderful brothers and sisters who can understand.

So yesterday evening i came back home from the vet she looked dead. but I knew she is druged. i coulnt see her belly moves and I didnt know if It was her hart that beats or my pulse. After an hour I was sure of it, but I needed someone to tell me this I call my cousin Yasmin.
She came strait away, bless her. she is working with the vet, and bury lots of pets. when she saw Gaia she started crying, she kept saying she is so sorry for me that i will have to deal with the pain.
I felt that she is crying for me, I felt that her teers are mine, her shaking hands, the panic voice, it was mine

After we bury Gaia I told Yasmin what I felt, she sudenly understood what iv been on about.
Women can take her mans sorrow and cry his teers. Few times I cryed for others, dont worry I was aware of it, I come from a strong place.
We are carry with us lots of energy which is not ours. I can feel it, when im standing in a qiue, all of a suden I feel agitating, I know I get it from the person next to me. I use the "Merkava" symbol, as a protection. In few seconds Im imagioning my self inside. and Im protected. better to do it before i go out but i keep forgeting.

We bury Gaia next to my tree. It is located in a tiny pice of land, I call it the mystical dry garden, full of old trees that no one tuch for years
its very rare to see a place like this in the city. very lucy.
I used to visit there almost everyday till I got my first kitten Yonatan, than I stoped.

Before I put the body i passed lots of sorrow energy into it and into the grownd.
sadness and anger is organic food for the trees and the grass, I do it quite often, lay my hands on a tree and breath into it all the bad energy and breath in fresh energy. Yesterday I realise that when we are going to visit our belovings caves we actualy bringing our sorrow into that pice of ground.
When I came home the lamb in the livingroom burned freaky...
I cry alot and at the same time, Im observing my sadness I must cry. I choose to be sad now, atherwise It will come beck.

Dear Gaia, I know you chosen the best place for you, I wish you to be happy and safe, may your soul rest in peace

Thank you my dear friends I feel much better now

maya