Reflections - Global Circles Sept 14

First of all, I would like to thank every one who commented on Yarra’s blog that she wrote as a public message to me. And to thank you deeply Yarra, for posting it. I’m also most grateful for comments about me, or to me, nestled in the other blogs about the circle this week. I am not very good at receiving compliments, but I do feel the grace and beauty and love that poured out from each of you. It opens me much more deeply to my true Self within, humbles my ego, and brings joy bubbling up into my awareness. Thank you.

We are learning to discover each other’s true Self; that’s what we’re feeling and seeing in the circle. The Voices of SourceSelf gave me the concept of this circle to share with you because we are ready; ready to let go of the boundaries that contain us, and experience a wholeness of shared essence. And boy did this week ever deliver a whooper of that! We were inundated with the oneness of Self. Thank you muchly to dear Hannah for setting the tone and energetic landscape for this to happen.

I felt many people gathering early for the meditation; preparing their spaces, preparing themselves. And I could feel how some of us were having to restrain ourselves from starting early. I really valued that, for I could feel the energy was really going to build strongly and we wanted everyone present when it started to crescendo.

When the circle gathered I spoke out and said, “Welcome, I’m aRA,” and I heard others speak out their welcomes too. I focused very deeply on the circle as a whole, feeling all of you around me as Hannah had instructed. My circle was in a starlit meadow surrounded by trees. This is where I always meet you all. Some of us meet each other in pyramids and other places. I began to be aware of this. There I was, standing in my circle with all of you, and there were other circles forming all around the Earth, where we were all standing together in different places. I could go stand in those other places and still be standing in my own circle in the trees, and sitting in my chair meditating.

I could feel this movement of being able to be in more than one time and space, opening between all of us. I could feel how it brought out different aspects of Self. In my circle I stood in the south; in other circles I sometimes stood in the west. I felt the rest of you moving around in the circles like this; changing archetypes, tuning self to new vibrational frequencies, and aligning with many guides and helpers.

At that point I was aware of myself in many circles and could understand better why the Voices named this meditation Global Circles, instead of circle singular. We were forming many circles all around the Earth, each one anchored by one of us, in our own time and space of energy. I was given a vision of the planet and of soaring high above her, seeing our circles like beads of light all over the surface of the world.

Then the energy really started building. I was back in my own circle again. My heart chakra literally burst into the fire from within. The circle suddenly became a rushing fountain of brilliant light, rising like a vortex of woven, threaded light from the Earth. We were all consumed within the light; we were the light. The feelings were of overwhelming peace and joy. My heart, throat and third eye chakras were becoming very infused with high vibrations. I was floating like a cloud far above, at the same time as standing in the circle.

Then something happened in the living light fountain that drew me right back in again. My body was vibrating very strongly. I was also very much aware of sitting and meditating. And yet the light was beaming all around me and it was becoming magnetic threaded light, weaving into geometric flows and patterns, creating a merkaba of energy. The oneness I felt with all of you was extraordinary. There was no beginning and end to myself, no beginning and end to you either. And yet I was myself, spinning, flowing, in this huge ball of woven light. The ball grew and expanded, moving higher and higher, encompassing the Earth.

And then the roots at the foot of the vortex suddenly ignited. From where we stood in circle, the Earth opened into living tendrils of light, and they raced downwards and outwards, igniting Earth’s world wide web of Self. The roots ran right into the Earth’s core and fed back up again, bringing living fire into the fountaining energy of the circle, accelerating the sphere of merkaba energy spinning in it’s branches. We were all, each of us, and all of us together, the entire tree of light, stretching down into the Earth and out into her farthest reaches, fountaining upwards in a vortex of living light, and spinning in a merkaba sphere as geometric, magnetic threaded light.

The Voices of SourceSelf say there is a living light language. It is the language of the universe. We are just beginning to learn this language by going into energy in deep meditation and experiencing the light shows of magnetic threaded light.

At this point I became aware of something I had not seen before. I was back in my own circle and I saw myself standing outside the vortex of living light. Then I saw each one of us standing back behind the light, in a circle outside of it.

Suddenly I was pulled, like riding on a roller coaster, into individual lives. It was like going down a long spinning tunnel inside myself, and falling into the life of another. I found myself pulled to this one and that one and then another. I found myself pulled into myself, the one that was standing outside of the light. And there were many stories, stories I felt with my body and heart. And I was almost ill; having a hard time maintaining presence in the meditation.

The stories were all about separated parts of self. There was pain and confusion and sorrow and guilt. There was self abnegation that kept each of us from fully recognizing our true and glorious essence. So that even while the vortex of living light was still spinning and weaving, parts of ourselves were left out of the energy, and hung back in the shadows, separated from wholeness.

I spent quite a long time being pulled by all the stories, the spinning funnels of connection between my heart and other hearts. At first I resisted, because I thought I must concentrate on getting myself to release fully and go into the light. But the tugging compulsion to merge heart to heart was overwhelming.

It wasn’t pleasant, going through the stories of our separated selves. I wanted to pull out of the feelings many times. But each time I did, I only ended back up in my separated self. And I had to face the stuff that is still roiling in me and keeping me from joining all of mySelf.

Then I began to be able to be both in my separated self and in the circle’s vortex of light. Compassion began to flow through me. From standing where I was in the shadows of separation, there began to run between my heart to the hearts of all others also standing in the shadows, a beautiful web of blue light. Trust built between us, compassion and grace, and most of all a forgiveness of self.

The separated self bodies began to be encompassed by the light; the vortex grew and surrounded us. The bodies held their form within this light, but they glowed both inside and outside. I was told that we would have to perform this exercise many more times, but that each time, more of the separated self would become free and would merge with the wholeness of being. We are learning in the meditation to release the boundaries of belief and experience we have erected around parts of self.

I cannot give a reflection of individual stories because they came too fast and too profoundly. I was in a very deep dream state and a very high space at the same time. My conscious mind was on overload. But I did know that experiencing and allowing each of us to be as we are now, opened the space for us to become more fully part of the light.

I see the work of each of you in this. I can tell from reading your blogs that you each made space for each other and recognized us all together as a whole. Much compassion and grace flowed through this circle.

Towards the end of the meditation, I was again taken into orbit far above the Earth and could see the circles all over her surface. Each was a fountain, a vortex of light, and each contained a different merkaba. At the roots of each circle, the light ran down into the Earth and around the world. We were ignited together in the world wide web of Self, the living tendrils of our Mother’s energy.

Then I was so exhausted, I had to go to bed. I slept with great peace and quietude.

Thank you very much to all of you for sharing this experience with me. From reading the blogs, I do feel we came together in a true oneness. Though each had their own version of events, their own circle, there were many common themes, many shared vistas of perception. I can see my version in the accounts of others; I can feel where you were experiencing the same flows of energy.

Yarra is going to coordinate the circle next Sunday. Look for her blog about it.

Love,
aRA Miles