My Knowlegable Philosophy's(Part II)

Once upon a dream
there was a spiritual awareness
with the divine and the angels
I got the wierd outlay of my life
and thought of my spoken relms, confused of why the universe and our purpose shall collide.
It was messed up beyond my understanding,
but at which later became my understanding and my enlightment.
How much did I really want to understand it? Was the battle once fought?
Is there really a hell along with the already existing heaven?
My knowledge protrays heaven is how we make it, our own paradise.
Then there is already a battle of heaven and hell all along.
Wwhich begun ever since the existance of adam and eve.
Its been invisable to us all along.
Niether side is winning yet, but I believe us earth angels who are is love and caring development, was put here to carry those lost souls with us. For us to have pure heaven we must become a higher consiousness, we must introduce them to the light in order for the divine creater to gift us our promised land of milk and honey"as quoted from the bible scriptures".
We must first follow our guides and help gain more of ourselves so that we carry as guides. So that our heaven shall win over the confused and sinful natures. We are to arise and learn from it, for he is mercyful and forgives all. But nevertheless, it is a never ending battle of learning to be our true selfs of our higher beings. Without choas how will be stay balanced, choas gave us free will, but choas causes our fears and bad thoughts. Which is why we must meditate and bring about our fears and insecurities, draw them out, so our paradise shall become more real. If you would take that away, so to speak, how is we are still human? Isn't being human having this short lived blessing than knowing you can't truely feel something being immortal? In all my deep delving into myself, I feel I finally found my purpose of answers. A home is not truely a home until we look into ourselves and there we sit inside the physical. Back on the subject of chaoas; without chaos there may be no will. That each of us, knowing we have will, what if it isn't really a will but a programmable destiny the divine creator gave us? No, what we fail to realize is that when we are born again, so to speak, we choose our lifes and our lessons to learn from, a contract, we have signed since the beginning of our existance. The mystery is finding where we started, when we existed, or were born. All the answers are within, as long as you want to look or are ready to know. Mind is over matter itself, between what is reality and illusion. What is logical and unlogical, togeher it IS reality. What will you find when you seperate yourself from the physical into your trueself, spirit/soul? The same soul who traveled in past lifes or astral traveled. You took different forms each time, each of us were reborn. We chose our path into enlightenment, christ conciousness in the likings of our creater. We chose to learn from each aspect of the now, or what was, so that we may reach our whole selfs in spirit. Then and only then, we may work together to walk in the likeness of our creater.