Choosing life in the hard times

The dark moments of our life can be so terribly overwhelming. Depression is a very hard state of mind to live in. Nothing seems to matter, we are just so sad and the burdens of the world just seem to get heavier and heavier. As Pagan clergy I have several times been called upon to fight the angel of death for friends who have been suicidal because of dark forces trying to make them commit suicide. There are spirits out there that delight in seducing the gentle and vulnerable into despair, they work to sap your will to live. They are real and we must recognize that. Whether these spirits were here from the beginnings of the creation of the universe, whether they are lost souls who themselves suffered horribly and haven't come full circle to the light, whether they are sentient thought forms matters not. Even if we humans created them they are real and they act on the instinct and instruction f the forces that created in their spirit DNA. Our battle through out our life is not against other humans as we so often make it. Our battle if such there is simply is to live life and embrace the light as best we can even in the dark times of our soul. I doubt there is even one person who lives on the Earth in this era who has not or wont face at some point in their life suicidal thoughts. Understand that these thoughts do not originate in you but are telepathic transmission from forces that seek to torment and destroy life and light. Malign spirits do exist but there is no need to be paranoid in seeing them everywhere, and no need to give in to there siren call. Life will be as hard or as easy as you make it for yourself. My life partner and I know only too well about the dark times of the soul for not only did he suffer from the worst undiagnosed case of clinical depression I ever saw and still be alive he aided me in saving one of our friends from suicide. When we met he had been 14 years undiagnosed and his aura was so compressed because he is an extremely strong empath and the only way he could cope with all the darkness was to shut himself totally down, starting with his emotions. That was in 2002 when we first became friends. A bunch of his friends and I did an intervention with him to seek medical help for the depression for he was long past the stage of needing medication to balance his hormonal system. a few weeks later before he was even on medication another friend tried to end it all right in front of us and we kept him alive and I went to the hospital and fought death for 8 hours after the doctors had stabilized him until he was aware and determined to choose life. In 2008 both are doing quite well having chosen to live and to embrace ascension light. by late 2003 I had a partner who was my twin flame and who became co HPS and then 2nd year Ovate when we were a part of MOCC a reformed Druidic Wicca organization.It has been my greatest blessing because I too was suffering through the dark times and I could have easily cast it all aside just before we met only his suffering called to me and reminded me I was here for a purpose. Then his healing encouraged me and vice versa and he discovered he had a purpose.
five years later he was again employed and aware of his worth, mostly through his own doing, and he is currently not needing medication. My point is that as lightworkers we often face the darkness and sometimes we choose the darkness of our soul and sometimes we flow through it into the light as the day follows night. I cannot sit back when I hear a cry for help and hope, when I feel the pain and suffering of others. I am one who guards life it is my purpose, who and what I am in this life. I guard because I have walked in the dark places, I have walked that mile and then some and the shadow lover cannot touch the physical body of me or anyone I guard so long as I choose to embrace life even in the dark times. It is a choice each of us as individuals must make, to choose between life and the death of our physical body during our ascension process. I will not stand in judgment of any who has chosen death over life, for they live on. Life and death are a cycle. life is the river we travel. Death is only a waterfall to the life that lies beyond this one. Heaven and Hell are of our own making, the mythos of our religions or the reality we live in- we still created the belief systems that engendered them. We are in control of our destiny and our fate. Remember this though you are not alone. When the dark times come, when the seductive thoughts say that it would be so easy, so much better, that others would be better off without your light shining in the world- these dark thoughts cannot force you to do anything against your will. You must choose. And there are plenty of us here who know and understand and are being supportive of you sending the light your way and the message that you are loved, you are needed and we are willing to help you back to life if that is your choice. If you need to talk to a professional do so. call the suicide hotline, talk to your clergy or a life coach or a friend. Be willing to lock away anything that makes it easier to obey the dark thoughts if your choice is life for as long as you need to be sure the dark thoughts no longer control your actions. And remember the footsteps in the sand poem? when you only see the one set of footprints the Divine is carrying you through the dark times of the soul. And when there are two sets we are there beside you. You might take the journey as an individual and it is a unique journey for you, but you never walk alone.