I Learned Who I am as a Person

For a long time I always wondered who I was, and what significant role I played on this earth as a person, always confused and downright lost. Why I have always lost myself and never was on solid ground myself, because I had more passion to put others first than myself. it explains why I am known as one of the blue people. I feel I am needed when I'm in a relationship, I feel guilty if I say no to someone. My hands and feet are always cold. I care more about love, and have no care for money.

as a crystal person, I'm very sensitive to the people around me and I can become at certain moments overwelmed but at the same time as I blue, I love having the love and attention(the need for love)
as a crystal person, I feel the physical world is cruel, cold and threatening. As I am as well more quiet and mostly reserved when I'm around people, sometimes even if I know them. I daydream and I am withdrawn.

I have strong characteristic of both. But I feel I am more a blue person(one of the blue people) more than a crystal person.

Unfortunately the worst part of me is the Red overlay.

My life seems to be a constant struggle.
I consistently experience conflict and frustration regarding relationships, health, money and/or career.
I experienced all of the following as a child

a) emotionally, physically or mentally abandoned or rejected (i.e., unwanted child, adopted, alcoholic parent, etc.)
b) emotionally, physically or mentally abused,

I never had a life threatening event, nor do I have uncontrollable amounts of anger or rage. But my red-overlay is what I've grown up with. Not having the love and support from my parents. Abandonment/mental and physical abuse. And my life is always outta control, a constant struggle to stay on my own feet.

so below in more in depth to both charactistic of both the blue and crystal Life colors that I am:

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Crystals have clear auras and are known as the "aura chameleons." Like chameleons, their auras will change colors to match those of the people they are connecting with at the time. They then take on the characteristics, behavior patterns, emotions and thoughts of that color.

Consequently, in power Crystals can get along quite well with almost anyone. Yellows , for example, feels they can relate to Crystals who, when they are with them, act and think like Yellows . Later, when the same Crystals spend time with Sensitive Tans, the Tans can feel as if they have found kindred spirits.

However, the Crystals' inconsistencies can also confuse people. One minute Crystals think and behave like Greens . A short while later, they can act like Blues . The more they connect and bond with others, the more their personalities change.

Because Crystals tend to absorb the colors of other people's auras, people can, at times, feel an energy drain when they are in the presence of Crystals. In power, Crystals can be a clear conduit or channel for healing energy. Being natural healers, the Crystals' gift is to help their clients clear blockages, thereby enabling the clients' own natural healing processes to take place.

While healing, balanced Crystals are able to keep their thoughts and emotions out of the way, making the healing more pure. Crystals do not always understand their healing abilities. It can often frighten and confuse them or cause them to feel overwhelmed. These rare souls are often physically fragile and delicate.

Because of their unusual sensitivity, they can only heal one person at a time. They then need to go to a peaceful place to cleanse their aura. Working with too many people can short-circuit their system.

To learn more about careers, relationships, money, healthy, children, etc for Crystals, read Life Colors: What the Colors in Your Aura Say About You or Love Colors: A New Approach to Love, Relationships, and Auras.

Crystal Children…

* Have large expressive eyes and an intense stare
* Are highly affectionate
* Begin speaking later in life, but often use telepathy or self-invented words or sign-language to communicate
* Love music and may even sing before talking
* Are extremely connected to animals and nature
* Are often very interested in rocks, crystals and stones
* Are extremely artistic
* Are highly empathic and sensitive
* Are forgiving and generous to others
* Draw people near them and love attention
* Often have an amazing sense of balance and are fearless when exploring high places
* Often see or hear angels and spirit guides -both theirs and others’

* Dislike high-stress environments with many distractions
* Dislike loud/sharp sounds
* Dislike bright, unnatural lights
* Often enjoy to choose their own meals and/or when they eat them
* Often speak about universal love and healing
* Show healing gifts at young ages
* Don’t react well to sugar, caffeine, or unnatural foods/chemicals
* Dislike fighting or refuse to keep an argument going very long
* Often show strength in telekinesis (or Pychokinesis)
* Often amplify emotional energies they gain from their environment (such as negative energies)
* Can become uncomfortable when around electrical devices too long (watching TV, computer, ect…)
* Sometimes seem ‘clingy’ to their parents until 4 or 5
* Often stare at people for long periods of time (this is called Everseeing: the child is finding out who the person truly is inside!)
* Can sometimes be manipulative and throw tantrums if they cannot create a reality that is good for them.
* Are easily over stimulated and need to meditate/be alone often to replenish themselves.
* Don’t usually have trouble with fear or worry.
* Enjoy discussing spiritual or philosophical topics.
* May appear to be looking at nothing or talking to no one (signs of clairvoyance and/or clairaudience

I am alot of these. there are only few I am not.

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MIND/BODY
Blues are the most caring, nurturing and protective personalities in the color-spectrum. They live out of their hearts and their emotions. Their life purpose is to serve, help and love others. Blues have an inner knowledge and wisdom and they feel and know what is right without needing facts or data for substantiation. The moment they become quiet inside, they will recognize or hear an inner voice or guidance, which will tell them what to do. They can easily tune into other people and feel precisely what is going on. Blues are the most emotional of all the color personalities. They often feel lost if they don't have the opportunity to clear their way through their intense jungle of deep feelings. Helpful activities for Blues would include talking with friends about their inner life, writing a journal or just being quiet so their intense emotions can calm down.

Blues are more concerned about others then they are about themselves They are born caretakers and mothers. They remember other people's birthdays, are concerned about the sick and have always a shoulder for others to cry on. They are born advisers, counselors, caretakers and nurses. Many people enjoy being with Blues because they transmit love, acceptance and forgiveness. Blues cry easily and primarily release their emotions, joy, sorrow, sadness and happiness, through tears. The other color personalities often have problems understanding the Blues intense emotionality. However, this emotional depth gives them the ability to be warm, sympathetic and protective.

The biggest challenge for any Blue person is to just say, "NO!" They have a basic fear that others might push them back, reject them or no longer love them. The fear of hurting other people's feelings reflects and mirrors their own fears of being hurt. They need to recognize the enormous benefits of Self-Love and also to understand that "no" does not mean the same as, " I don't love you." They need to find their boundaries and borders with other people because they have a tendency of allowing friends and even strangers to come into their energy field without having adequate protection. Sometimes Blues even take on other people's energies and qualities. This can especially happen while they are helping or nurturing others in the capacity of nurses or caretakers. This can occur to the point where they actually take on other people's sicknesses or problems. Blues are precise and clear in their thinking. From a mental standpoint they are usually in a peaceful and calm state of mind. They focus more on their feelings and emotions than on their thoughts. Blues do not like physical activity or work. For theses sensitive beings the physical world often seems loud, brutal and harsh. They prefer to reside in their own emotional world. They enjoy sports they can practice with friends and family. These would include such activities as walking, swimming and simple ball games. Because they are not very physically active, and because Blue is the color of expansion and wideness, they can easily gain weight.

SOCIAL LIFE
Blues enjoy being around people all the time. They are very social, the perfect caretakers and helpers, always interested in and concerned about other people's needs. These traits allow them to be loving and in service to their family or friends. Blues are found in all areas of society, wherever service and support is needed. The biggest gift for these loving personalities is to help and support their family and friends. They are family oriented people who love being with their partners, children or friends. Planing picnics, creating nice meals, nothing seems too much if it is enjoyed and appreciated. Blues have friends for life.

RELATIONSHIPS AND INTIMACY
The most important aspect of a Blues life is living in healthy, harmonious relationships. Blues want to be loved and appreciated. They make wonderful mates because they love to take care of and support their loved ones. They will do anything to create a happy and harmonious family life. They often expect their partner to return their love or be as much supportive and caring. They need to understand that other color personality characters might not understand the strong emotional depth they possess and also have different emotional and mental behaviors.

Blues want to be married and live in affectionate, solid family units. Love and affection is more important to them than sex and passion. Kissing, cuddling and feeling their partner's affection and emotional love are more important than sexual excitement and stimulation. Sexuality is a deep, emotional and spiritual experience and creates a strong bond between the lovers. Blues are loyal and monogamous. They need to be aware that if they are too emotionally demanding with their partner, they might push them away. In disharmonious relationships they have problems with letting go. The very words, "let go," are key words for all Blues.

Blue personalities are not very interested in money. Emotional and spiritual values are far more important and play a much larger role in their life. They are careful with money and have a rather conservative approach to it. They need to make sure to cover all their expenses and needs and normally do not take any financial risks. Blues are born nurses, caretakers, counselors and therapists. They are also born listeners and easily tune into other people's feelings and thoughts. If Blues choose an occupation, which does not offer these opportunities, they are still usually known as the "nice, good person around the corner." They would be the people you go to if you have any problems or want to unload any emotional disturbances.

Blues solve their problems by being peaceful, looking inside themselves, and asking the right questions. They must learn to listen and trust their intuition, their inner voice, and then deal with the situation. Because of their strong intuition and their inner knowledge, Blues usually know what they should do. Their main problem is taking action and making changes. The biggest challenge for Blues is letting go of old habits and patterns and openly embracing new situations. Blues are good listeners and have the ability to tune into other people's inner world. They have a strong intuition and healing power. This is why they are often found in professions in which they can be helpful, nurturing or supportive. Typical "Blue" occupations are: Nurse, caretaker, priest, nun, housewife, mother, child care worker, service personal, social-worker, counselor, teacher, therapist, consultant, healer, secretary, accountant, personal manager and volunteer.

HEALTH, WELL-BEING AND GROWTH
To become centered, Blues must learn the difficult lesson of loving themselves. If they can overcome their biggest fear, which is to not be loved and to be alone, they can express their deep feelings freely and then live a compassionate, happy and fulfilling life. It is important for Blues to set their own boundaries and make clear decisions. They must learn to say, "No," if it feels like "no." Connecting with their personal power and then using it allows them to achieve their goals and give out even more love.

Blues need a lot of time for themselves. They like being in a quiet atmosphere, listening to harmonious music or just sitting in a peaceful room. Being alone is relaxing and allows them to go within. Allowing peace and silence to occur are important activities for Blues to find their purpose in life. Meditation and prayer are the most important and powerful tools they can use to achieve inner peace and happiness and to recharge their own life energy batteries. Going to church or a meditation class is an excellent way of meeting like-minded people and getting involved into a spiritual way of life.

Blues need to constantly be aware of their sensitive and powerful emotional system. Understanding their Mind/Body relationship will help them to stay healthy and strong. If Blues have a question or want to solve a problem, they need to be quiet, stay centered and go inward. If they ask a question in this peaceful state of mind they will hear and immediately sense the answer inside. The challenge for Blues is not only to hear and trust their inner voice, but also to act on it and live their inner knowledge in the real world.