angels reached out and touched my life once again

it's 10:20 pm in my country...

i was updating the files section of my yahoo group and as well as the links. and then i remembered that i needed to know my angel for the night. so i typed in the search engine... angel oracles online. then there were websites that appeared and i checked them out. i uploaded some new files and links... then i tried out one of the angel oracles.

i asked for the angel of the night and the angel that appeared was "angel of emergencies". the message was long but it really struck me because it meant that if this angel has appeared to you, it means that you have a lot of things going on and you feel that you are totally overwhelmed by it... and by "it", i mean the changes.

as a scorpio, i tend to want to control everything in my life and as far as i can make it... i wouldn't allow changes to happen... but then, i must accept the fact that i should learn to adapt to it because that is the only thing permanent in the world...

things are changing in my world. i'm more active now... i'm more open. i also feel that my soul is elevating into something and i'm very excited about it... but i don't know about my earthly matters. i'm starting to work! soon enough, i will be supporting myself... and i know i should be looking forward to that but i'm sure going to miss doing nothing. lol. soon enough i will be doing a lot of things for myself and i will need to start depending on myself alone... i'm scared about that because i guess, since birth, i have always been pampered (lol i admit... it's not a good thing.) and everything was served to me... except academic matters. THAT i know perfectly how to do... that's why i feel if there is a job where i can be a student forever, i will do it. lol. but i have to grow up someday... and here it is. hehe.

but i know that these thoughts of mine are so invalid... i mean there are a lot of things in my life that i have done for myself. i got that business developer job by myself and was able to establish 5 franchises within 3 months... i got that tarot job by myself too and was able to stay at it for 8 months. i also established a yahoogroup that offers free readings and its getting better each year.

i also did a lot of academic jobs on my own even if it was supposed to be a group effort...

i mean, i know i'm supposed to give myself some credit.

*sigh*

anyway, i just know that the angels are just encouraging me to do my best. hehe. i just find it miraculous that they really find ways to contact me and tell me that they are watching over me. hehe. i need some rest. eh? hehe