I think I Have finally found him... twin soul

everytime i see him

my fucking heart melts a little more

nothing to hide

first thing i should mention, is that i'm not your average girl here. i don't go head over heels for just anyone....

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Every touch, chemistry like I have never felt before, something not of this world...

Think I've known him before...

This is such a beautiful thing, I know it's out of my hands.

I don't want to realize I've gone off the deep end, but ....

He is so like me, yet not...

Could I really be this lucky

I asked for this, some of you know

Releasing so much at this moment, so much of my past hurts.

We are both so afraid. Cried because we were afraid.

Holding hands, sharing sparks

Felt it coming, my stories in my free time ... predict my life

Weird

I am doing a lot of research at the moment.

I have a man that visits me occasionally in my dreams with tidbits of advice, but .... is that him. The last time I saw him he looked deathly sick..... Nothing since then, I felt as though he was dying, wherever he was. Just ill looking, but he was so beautiful to me, he still was quite good-looking, but I knew that things were not right on the inside. This was many months ago since I heard something from him. I don't even know his name. But I kept asking over and over and pleading for someone in real life to talk to about this stuff, wanting someone like me. Josh pops up out of nowhere, willing to drive an hour to come pick me up. We knew each other before, liked each other before, but I thought he needed a little more experience at the time.

I am so confused

o.O

But then again, all of this doesn't really matter

What is meant to happen will happen... Maybe I just want it. Trying to keep myself in check.

But he's everything I wanted.

Such a gentlemen. A girl isn't used to doors being opened for her anymore these days...

I feel like my heart is just dumping out all of the old pains, like a forest fire, burning ... making room for the new

like hurricanes

And I don't think I wanna be 'in love'

I've never been 'in' love before... Yet I have loved, and this boy, has ... It's so weird, I .... feel uncomfortable and feign and pretend with others. I don't with him. He gets the genuine. You guys too.. I have no reason to hide here. My beliefs are starting to sink into my real, material life, though. Affecting what I say, who I associate with, not that I would ever think I'm better than anyone. The light needs to get stronger, those strapped in darkness might not want to get better.

He gets what is shielded from the others

Til I get a little bit stronger

Many people don't know how to talk to me, I don't mean to be that way