WHAT Is Going On?

WOW!!! I didnt think this night at work was ever going to get over. I couldnt wait to get home and write down the things I have been feeling this evening.
So the only way to get this off my chest was to come here and HOPEFULLY make some sense out of what is going on. Whether its part of my awakening or is this something else that could be the problem
First off, while at work, I was thinking of some things, and just out of the blue, I had this awful feeling of Being so0o0o alone.
I then began to tear up. I was thinking to myself, My gawd is this what things are going to be like. I then had this feeling sweep over me like- I just didnt even want to be there anymore ( at work)
I had so many feelings going through me at the time...fear, depressed, Lonely, and the one that really GOT me was.....Paranoid. I thought to myself...."ARE YOU KIDDING ME" this isnt right.
It was a very terrible feeling. I didnt like feeling like that.
ANd out of all places it happens at work.
Trying to keep myself together- I sat there and kept thinking.... 2 more hours... 2 more hours
And thinking that was going to be an eternity before I get out of here.
Ok so here I am.
Im sorry IF this post sounded a bit strange or Heck, if it even made any sense at all, but...(LoL) thats kinda how I feel right now...Not making any sense and confused.
Thank you for letting me get this off my chest.
Love
Believe