The lows of ascension

There’s a dark, dark place around me, it’s surrounding my very soul,
Where no warmth or love has found me, I feel empty and never whole
There’s a place that I escape to, a room inside my mind, the dark can never be there
Because it’s full of light divine

I’m fighting with my emotions, one minute happy, one minute sad,
When my ego is taking over, my life feels very bad
You may ask why’s this happening? I can’t answer that right now
But I do know this won’t hurt long because my inner voice sings loud

I am up and down so often, no sense I sometimes see
For I know I can’t dodge it any longer, that sense of destiny
Whether I leave someone behind me, whom I cherished and adored
Will I wake one day and find out, that this was always, always floored

I need some love some light now, fellow light workers please provide
For I am at a place of anguish over a decision I can not hide

(I am up and down at the moment emotionally, but as poetry comes from the heart, I have to deliver the good and the bad, otherwise I am not true to me, or the many of you)