today i celebrate myself!

today is an anniversary for me, i started my life over 2 years ago today. picked up the kids, returned to my home town and escaped a very oppressive relationship! i want to say i i'm a whole new me, but i'm not. i just got me back!

i'm still a bit wobbly. and i mean that literally. years of suppressing anger had me so blah blocked (see hands of light, barbara ann brennan for illustration) that i had almost imploded. the tension in my spine has slowly released (with much practice of the alexander technique - thanks to beverly norman!) and i'm feeling physically better than i have in many years. there's still some work to do to keep things this way, that's why i'm still a bit wobbly, old patterns are hard to undo on any level, even the physical.

to celebrate today i'm seeing both a student and my teacher. then sunday, i take of on a backcountry adventure. i'm challenging my body now so i can overcome the negative emotional effects of physical education programs that left me believing i am weak. this is especially important for me because my cree name is strong woman. it's a bit difficult to believe that's who i am when i have such a poor physical strength image of myself.

this trip will kick off the year i heal my body, release all the energetic scars i hold and begin to rejoice in my body again. i hope that bringing my body and mind together in a more harmonious way will enable me to do get out and do things that my limiting attitude has held me back from doing.

watch out world, here i come (again)!